the wrong way
i dont know what is going on... but priyanka and i were talking last night... and i asked what the worst decision drunk lindsey could make... and pri and i proceeded to make a list... thats when i realized that it didnt' seem like there really was a good decision to be made... you have no idea how depressing that is... i mean i hafta make some decision, or god only knows what would happen... but it seems i'm at the edge... surrounded my shit i don't want... or maybe shit i want but aren't in my best interest...
but i mean... how do you know what the "good decision" would be... i mean in relationships it's so confusing... who knows what's gonna work? who knows who will last and who will bust? i mean, we have no idea... how do we know that a bad decision won't lead to an amazing something? i know that in life in general i've had amazing things come from accidents or even mistakes... it's how life is.
now, i'm not trying to say that making bad decisions is the way to go. one should still attempt to do the right thing and make wise choices, but maybe it isn't the end of the world when ya fuck up... maybe some fuck ups need to happen.
now, back to the knowing if something is right... i've always had trouble identifying what exactly my feelings for people are... i know what love is, i've been there, and i know what hate is, i've been there as well. but there's the place in the middle the place that differentiates between liking someone in a platonic way, and liking someone... this is where i get mixed up and confused... a lot of times, i'm right on the edge... where i know i could have feelings for someone, but i don't know if i should, if it's worth it... how do you know if it is worth it? cuz i mean, honestly, these things tend to not work out... and i mean, why get yourself all worked up over something that problem won't work?
what do you do if you think you know what could make you happy... what could make someone else happy... what could make ya'll happy... BUT it would hurt someone else. it would hurt a few other people, and these aren't people you dislike... these are people you both like... people you both don't want to hurt. why can't these things not be so complicated? why can't they just be clean cut and easy? i mean it could be so right... but at this point, i don't see how you can do that to the other people... i just don't... i may be a bitch, but there's a line, and i don't think i'm willing to cross it... at least at this point i'm not.
"it's the wrong way" - sublime
much love
la
peace
p.s.: i hate boys with girlfriends... please don't be all up on me when you have a girlfriend, and if you do want to be all flirtations then do it, but don't pull this bullshit where after 30 seconds you're like, "o no...she's gonna see and be mad" because that's not fair or fun. either accept the consequences of your actions or don't do it... cuz what you're doing is annoying and no longer will be tolerated. AND there's no need for her to hate me just because you get flirtations when she turns around... it's like the saying, "don't hate me because i'm beautiful, hate me because your boyfriend thinks so, and there's nothing you can do about it." ~ ok, actually i don't think that applied... it's more like, quit being a bitch... reprimand your boy, not me... i'm not in an exclusive relationship, so i can talk to whomever and it isn't wrong...
but i mean... how do you know what the "good decision" would be... i mean in relationships it's so confusing... who knows what's gonna work? who knows who will last and who will bust? i mean, we have no idea... how do we know that a bad decision won't lead to an amazing something? i know that in life in general i've had amazing things come from accidents or even mistakes... it's how life is.
now, i'm not trying to say that making bad decisions is the way to go. one should still attempt to do the right thing and make wise choices, but maybe it isn't the end of the world when ya fuck up... maybe some fuck ups need to happen.
now, back to the knowing if something is right... i've always had trouble identifying what exactly my feelings for people are... i know what love is, i've been there, and i know what hate is, i've been there as well. but there's the place in the middle the place that differentiates between liking someone in a platonic way, and liking someone... this is where i get mixed up and confused... a lot of times, i'm right on the edge... where i know i could have feelings for someone, but i don't know if i should, if it's worth it... how do you know if it is worth it? cuz i mean, honestly, these things tend to not work out... and i mean, why get yourself all worked up over something that problem won't work?
what do you do if you think you know what could make you happy... what could make someone else happy... what could make ya'll happy... BUT it would hurt someone else. it would hurt a few other people, and these aren't people you dislike... these are people you both like... people you both don't want to hurt. why can't these things not be so complicated? why can't they just be clean cut and easy? i mean it could be so right... but at this point, i don't see how you can do that to the other people... i just don't... i may be a bitch, but there's a line, and i don't think i'm willing to cross it... at least at this point i'm not.
"it's the wrong way" - sublime
much love
la
peace
p.s.: i hate boys with girlfriends... please don't be all up on me when you have a girlfriend, and if you do want to be all flirtations then do it, but don't pull this bullshit where after 30 seconds you're like, "o no...she's gonna see and be mad" because that's not fair or fun. either accept the consequences of your actions or don't do it... cuz what you're doing is annoying and no longer will be tolerated. AND there's no need for her to hate me just because you get flirtations when she turns around... it's like the saying, "don't hate me because i'm beautiful, hate me because your boyfriend thinks so, and there's nothing you can do about it." ~ ok, actually i don't think that applied... it's more like, quit being a bitch... reprimand your boy, not me... i'm not in an exclusive relationship, so i can talk to whomever and it isn't wrong...