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today was one of those rice-rain sort of days, the kind of rain that makes one appreciate the fact that it's raining. my coworker and i spent all day chain smoking and discussing the epistemology of love, and after work i went for a looonggg bike ride and finally put a deposit down what has been deemed cara and i's (and i guess justin's for now!) new apartment. it's a big big apartment with closet space! also 5 minutes closer to the train, and 150 dollars less per month. i sat in the park for a while in the drizzle, sometime around midnight, and made up conversations for all the people that wandered by; i was forgiving, it's that kind of night.
i had a visit from my past today, and all it took was 30 seconds to realize i really have let it all go. others seem to be caught up in it. i feel a certain sense of validated freedom today, knowing that-- the freedom to dislodge from preconceptions of myself and rebuild them, at least until sunrise tomorrow.
i wrote a song tonight. that hasn't happened in months.
i keep dreaming about portland, it's been happening for months. that's okay, though, i'm working myself out. sometimes.
according to a man named francis, i am a leo in an aquarius. a leo in an aquarium? i think so.
i had a visit from my past today, and all it took was 30 seconds to realize i really have let it all go. others seem to be caught up in it. i feel a certain sense of validated freedom today, knowing that-- the freedom to dislodge from preconceptions of myself and rebuild them, at least until sunrise tomorrow.
i wrote a song tonight. that hasn't happened in months.
i keep dreaming about portland, it's been happening for months. that's okay, though, i'm working myself out. sometimes.
according to a man named francis, i am a leo in an aquarius. a leo in an aquarium? i think so.