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i'm feeling a lot better now. i was sick on thursday, but now i dont feel so bad. my voice is pretty fucked up, but at least i dont feel sick anymore. and my mood! my mood has improved so much in just 2 days. i love effexor. i dont care what anyone says. movies like garden state can suck it. i need medication to be sane and it doesnt make me void of feeling. it takes away the anxiety and nitemares. it makes being around people tolerable. it makes the negative thoughts disappear. also it makes me less stressed. when i'm not on my meds i cant think straight and all of my problems seem HUGE and i feel like i cant solve any of them. the only solution i can think of is suicide. but dont worry, i know suicide is not the answer. medication is haha. but seriously i dont want people to get the impression that i'm one of those dramatic people who claims they'll kill themselves just for attention.-
work is good. i <3 my job. i need a 2nd job though. i dont make enough and not having benefits is really shitty. i want to say to my job to give me a contract or i'm leaving, but i love my job too much to do that. cause if they were like....well bye then i'd be sorry. i've never had a job i liked this much. ugh why is everyone bothering me about how i'm going to move up in my job. it's practically impossible without going to school, and i dont have money for school. my budget is tight. the next step up for me would i guess be to get a contract which i dunno how long that will take and the next step after that is being a teacher and that i cant do. so leave me alone people, unless you wanna pay for my college.
work is good. i <3 my job. i need a 2nd job though. i dont make enough and not having benefits is really shitty. i want to say to my job to give me a contract or i'm leaving, but i love my job too much to do that. cause if they were like....well bye then i'd be sorry. i've never had a job i liked this much. ugh why is everyone bothering me about how i'm going to move up in my job. it's practically impossible without going to school, and i dont have money for school. my budget is tight. the next step up for me would i guess be to get a contract which i dunno how long that will take and the next step after that is being a teacher and that i cant do. so leave me alone people, unless you wanna pay for my college.