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what am i suppose to do when a distant brother just starts talking out of nowwhere??? he's just talking and im just here blowing him off sorta catching little things here and there and suicide just stays afloat. my life is going to get tougher so he says. all about college. living on campus, no car, drinking, up late studying, no mistakes....well that sucks. never too good with the talks but he tries i guess. reat im going to be dependant on people for transportation. fucking great....wow im just hating him more and more. too late for a bond. tick tock tick tock. just leave already. alright live in a dorm. im not young. you still dont know i fucked up. i have no plans for the future. now i dont want to go to San Antonio. so now im the burden of the family. fucking asshole. anyone know the quickest way to death? how much i need a savior. im tired of this already.. all of it has grown so old. so much fucking hate towards him. so silent yet screaming in the inside. i need hobbies any ideas??? i need something to get my mind free from thoughts.