Grrrr....
Hey so things were going good then shit hit the floor again Talked to Audrey this morning found out she's coming back for the weekend and yeah so not leaving for Florida this week and then we started talking and apparently the shit she said was like this I've changed and I'm more serious ok great doesn't want to get married now and everythings so fucked on that subject she said she doesn't know what she wants well ya should have thought bout that when you wrote those letters in boot camp bout how you felt and shit your idea not mine at the time but I liked the idea and yeah you get out of boot and it's different a month out aof boot and your different great I waste 4 month of my life for shit and ya don't know what you want well must not love me that much if you have to think bout what you want but the fuckin story of my life in relationships huh .... fuck it I can't do it anymore I almost feel as if it would have been better not to get back together I mean ya love me ya love me not well fuck you you shouldn't have to think bout it ..It should have been decided in a second ya love someone for a year there shouldn't be a question of it I mena really if there is you must not... True love is a feeling that just fuckin smacks you in the face you try as hard as you can to show it and find a way to make it work... so I guess I'm at that point for now where I say fuck true love! maybe a friend was right maybe it doesn't exsist .... you sweat, you bleed, you work to the bone to mold it and shape it into one form but in the end it means nothing........
Ok ranting done for now I'm going to get tipsy later and blow off some steam ,redo the interior in my car it's so awsome me and regiee got some fabric all chinesse drgaon like and red velet for the headliner and side panels so were going to atempt it and see how it turns out .... Tanya stayed over last night she's cool we've been friends for only afew weeks and she know's alot about me in that short period of time but a good friend she grabs things too much some times being married and whatnot but other than that cool and can dance well .... went to Hammerjacks with her and Katline and Reggiee and believe it or not he can dance go figure he hit one move and had like 5 girls swarm him me and Tanya of course thought the universe had fliped into a 360 but whatever a good time had by all .....heee heee me Tommy and Tanya got reggee with duct tape this morning it was funny to use we all got a big kick out of it but reggee didn't agree with the ripping of his nipple hair so much can't imagine why?
yeah so other than that alittle down but on the good side no relationship then I get all my money back from the ring like $2000.00 dollors of it whatever.... it's funny I looked at that ring and would stop by while still paying it off and yeah just had this feeling of acomplishment as if something was finally going to work what do I know right... Oh well life goes on.... right sadly not they way I wished it to but blah!
time to hit the road I'll probaly post once a week or more depends when I happen to reach a comp!
Ok ranting done for now I'm going to get tipsy later and blow off some steam ,redo the interior in my car it's so awsome me and regiee got some fabric all chinesse drgaon like and red velet for the headliner and side panels so were going to atempt it and see how it turns out .... Tanya stayed over last night she's cool we've been friends for only afew weeks and she know's alot about me in that short period of time but a good friend she grabs things too much some times being married and whatnot but other than that cool and can dance well .... went to Hammerjacks with her and Katline and Reggiee and believe it or not he can dance go figure he hit one move and had like 5 girls swarm him me and Tanya of course thought the universe had fliped into a 360 but whatever a good time had by all .....heee heee me Tommy and Tanya got reggee with duct tape this morning it was funny to use we all got a big kick out of it but reggee didn't agree with the ripping of his nipple hair so much can't imagine why?
yeah so other than that alittle down but on the good side no relationship then I get all my money back from the ring like $2000.00 dollors of it whatever.... it's funny I looked at that ring and would stop by while still paying it off and yeah just had this feeling of acomplishment as if something was finally going to work what do I know right... Oh well life goes on.... right sadly not they way I wished it to but blah!
time to hit the road I'll probaly post once a week or more depends when I happen to reach a comp!