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oh yeah and Audrey e-mailed me and asked why my phone wasn't on and what happened to me I think that's funny then said Sean I need to talk to you it's important ....ok! .Funny I wrote back simply we my phones been out of minutes and my car blew a rod and I had to go out buy a new one ... and quiet frankly I feel you made yourself very clear how you felt and I don't know what their is to talk about!
I know she's not pregnant she had a preg test before going in and birth control through out it mandatory ya know so the only thing I can think of is she's been thinking and I feel this too little too late I'm sick of waiting for people to make up their god damn fuckin mind just come out and do it that's love it's taking chances and making mistakes and ya know ya try not to make too big of ones and ya forgive people but sometimes people treat love like nothing and that's how people get hurt you treat it like shit and it turns out like shit not always one persons fault but not always both faults sometimes it fades ....and the more shit you make and the more your not sure of your heart and don't make it simple and to the point of just( I LOVE YOU!) ( I ADORE YOU!) the more fake it is! and frankly I'm sick of the shit and feeling that way! I want the old feeling back of spontaniousness ( think that's spelled right oh well) and like your just two people a world away from everything ya know ....... fuck mariage for awhile I'm not fucking moving onto one knee again for atimes away....not till I know for sure.... that may take sometime .
I'm sick of the fuckin games ya know can't love ever be simple I mean how fuckin hard is it to actually love someone without having to question it ...ha
I also heard Paul-Steve had part in changing her mind ... whatever ... small minds beleive alot of shit ya know what I mean
~ok ok got to roll out yo! b-money!~
I know she's not pregnant she had a preg test before going in and birth control through out it mandatory ya know so the only thing I can think of is she's been thinking and I feel this too little too late I'm sick of waiting for people to make up their god damn fuckin mind just come out and do it that's love it's taking chances and making mistakes and ya know ya try not to make too big of ones and ya forgive people but sometimes people treat love like nothing and that's how people get hurt you treat it like shit and it turns out like shit not always one persons fault but not always both faults sometimes it fades ....and the more shit you make and the more your not sure of your heart and don't make it simple and to the point of just( I LOVE YOU!) ( I ADORE YOU!) the more fake it is! and frankly I'm sick of the shit and feeling that way! I want the old feeling back of spontaniousness ( think that's spelled right oh well) and like your just two people a world away from everything ya know ....... fuck mariage for awhile I'm not fucking moving onto one knee again for atimes away....not till I know for sure.... that may take sometime .
I'm sick of the fuckin games ya know can't love ever be simple I mean how fuckin hard is it to actually love someone without having to question it ...ha
I also heard Paul-Steve had part in changing her mind ... whatever ... small minds beleive alot of shit ya know what I mean
~ok ok got to roll out yo! b-money!~