Alittle better
ok well shit was fucking up again after I replaced all the interior and headliner in my car and new head unitmy car started making noises scary damn noises so I did what anyone would do go to the shop the guys told me the motor was going and would shoot out a piston well not ten minutes down the road it did sucked but took all the money I was using for the ring that I got back and bought a new one 97 ford probe black and great they owe me a distributor and muffler but I got it all in writing so it's all good I feel alittle better Audrey e-mailed me and said she wants to talk it's important I responded with just I don't know what we have to talk about you made your feelings quiet clear.... whatever I got my ring back from her mother and that feels better my life is going better now and good friends to talk to have helped and yes even reggie has helped even thou he needs to use more common sense I still feel lonely at times and still struggling with my fathers death and just alot of nightmares I get about 2 nights of full sleep a week but I'm coping better.... been spending more time with my sister and that helps me realize why I don't want to go to Florida more and more shes getting older and smarter and getting my wit which scares me to a point but she'll be fine ... I've also noticed that she's taking a slight intrest in cooking which is fuckin awsome if I had a kitchen of my own I would love to play on that intrest more and more.... oh god yeah and I'm taking her to get a botice this weekend scary that she will be wearing one that's all I have to say from a big brother point of view ya know... life seems to be getting alittle easier lately for me just I don't know the pressure is disappearing and I've been taking time to myself to think and go for walks and even taking time to enjoy the small things again like the moonlight nights and sitting on a peir at night and just listening to the sweet sounds of nothing ya know ..... anywho have to go pay some bills and drive a friend to work so untill next time .... I say to myself live simply don't simply live....