No Change, Just Recognition
The past couple of days have been the same. I have not talked to those friends since everything happened on Tuesday. I am starting to think why hold on? I have gotten better by not worrying about it. I just have to keep reminding myself that God is in control. It does not stop you from wondering though- why? The think I like about God is that when He asks a question, He already knows the answer. I try to imgaine what that would be like- to ask a question and always know the answer. Things might be better and probably worse. I started to think that sometimes we hold on to things when God tries to take them away. I do hate it when I get so flustered about what is going on. I try so hard to understand everything, try to make it all just make sense, yet at the end I always find myself in the same position as when I started. I never figure out what is going on; it just gets more confusing. What I really need is time away from- everything. Some things help, but sometimes all good and bad need to just be pushed away to regain self-consciousness. A new start sounds nice. Ha, I am just going to have to deal...with it all. I really need sole reliance on God.