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I swear, not to God, but to myself, that the last couple of months have been pure hell. I've had to hold my tongue, watch my actions, be a lady, bulk up, be a door mat, cry to get my way, work my ass off, and stay true to myself all at the same time. I've experienced so much, and I'm thankful, but I'm unsettled. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes it's so damn hard to come to terms with. In the last month,
-My parents have finalized their divorce
-I've lost my best friend
-I've cried myself to sleep, alot
-I've missed home
-I've smoked cigarettes
-I've fought with a friend for no apparent reason
-I've slept almost 24 hours
-I've questioned myself
-I've driven out of my way to see someone
-I've doubted myself
-I've lost 15 pounds
-I've thought about the war
-I've picked a fight with a random girl
-I stole a cactus
-I've gotten my first parking ticket
-I surfed down stairs with a boogey board
-I've denied myself the truth
-I've hated my father
-I've forgiven my father
-Two good friends of mine are going to Iraq & it hurts everday
-I've wished I was 7 again
-I thought about reincarnation
-I've told a complete stranger a secret
-I've missed someone
-I waited by the phone for a call I never got
-I've been a shoulder to cry on
-I did something that I've despised others for
-I've wished I was someone else
-I've been scared to sleep alone
-I've tripped up stairs
-I've made drunken phone calls
-I free-styled
-I could go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on, but its useless...
Hugs are welcome, tears are not.
I swear, not to God, but to myself, that the last couple of months have been pure hell. I've had to hold my tongue, watch my actions, be a lady, bulk up, be a door mat, cry to get my way, work my ass off, and stay true to myself all at the same time. I've experienced so much, and I'm thankful, but I'm unsettled. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes it's so damn hard to come to terms with. In the last month,
-My parents have finalized their divorce
-I've lost my best friend
-I've cried myself to sleep, alot
-I've missed home
-I've smoked cigarettes
-I've fought with a friend for no apparent reason
-I've slept almost 24 hours
-I've questioned myself
-I've driven out of my way to see someone
-I've doubted myself
-I've lost 15 pounds
-I've thought about the war
-I've picked a fight with a random girl
-I stole a cactus
-I've gotten my first parking ticket
-I surfed down stairs with a boogey board
-I've denied myself the truth
-I've hated my father
-I've forgiven my father
-Two good friends of mine are going to Iraq & it hurts everday
-I've wished I was 7 again
-I thought about reincarnation
-I've told a complete stranger a secret
-I've missed someone
-I waited by the phone for a call I never got
-I've been a shoulder to cry on
-I did something that I've despised others for
-I've wished I was someone else
-I've been scared to sleep alone
-I've tripped up stairs
-I've made drunken phone calls
-I free-styled
-I could go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on, but its useless...
Hugs are welcome, tears are not.