Like a christmas ball shattered in a million pieces
My wonderful mood was ruined by finding out something about Hanna. She has a new girlfriend.
I know I shouldn't care, but that stuff's always gonna be that nasty, isn't it? It's never easy. What makes me feel worse is that I know the girl, she's in my Italian class, and she's really wonderful. Fun, pretty, open, easy-going, intelligent, witty, charming, nice... all those things I can never be. And I can't even hate her properly, because she really is a wonderful person, and I've gotten to liking her a lot. I'm really selfish for wishing that they hadn't ever met, I know, but fuck... it's just never easy.
I know I shouldn't care, but that stuff's always gonna be that nasty, isn't it? It's never easy. What makes me feel worse is that I know the girl, she's in my Italian class, and she's really wonderful. Fun, pretty, open, easy-going, intelligent, witty, charming, nice... all those things I can never be. And I can't even hate her properly, because she really is a wonderful person, and I've gotten to liking her a lot. I'm really selfish for wishing that they hadn't ever met, I know, but fuck... it's just never easy.