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I dont want sympathy, I want a boyfriend that will accept me for me, and not make me feel like well why cant I be that girl because if i was he would like me more..
I dont know what to do. Im stuck in one place just wanting to be what he wants me to be.
He wants me to be his girlfriend, on the side. His "close friend" on some days, and his girlfriend on others when it makes him look good. I really thought I clicked with him and he gets me, but the thing is...I get him. I know how he is, I know that everything majority of the time is about him, and I know he has his days where he makes me feel like im the most special thing but then their are other days where he makes me feel like I mean nothin. I just dont understand what happened. We were so close, so perfect and now it's like I dont even exist to him, like he talks to me out of guilt. It sucks because nobody understands how deep my feelings sunk for him, and im trying so hard to just squash them back into that "friend" feeling...but I cant. I just cant.
I never write in this thing, but im writing in it now because there is no way I could let this out in any other way, because nobody really gets it, and I dont blame them. Im making myself look more stupid with each day.
Whatever, im not gonna be around forever.
I dont know what to do. Im stuck in one place just wanting to be what he wants me to be.
He wants me to be his girlfriend, on the side. His "close friend" on some days, and his girlfriend on others when it makes him look good. I really thought I clicked with him and he gets me, but the thing is...I get him. I know how he is, I know that everything majority of the time is about him, and I know he has his days where he makes me feel like im the most special thing but then their are other days where he makes me feel like I mean nothin. I just dont understand what happened. We were so close, so perfect and now it's like I dont even exist to him, like he talks to me out of guilt. It sucks because nobody understands how deep my feelings sunk for him, and im trying so hard to just squash them back into that "friend" feeling...but I cant. I just cant.
I never write in this thing, but im writing in it now because there is no way I could let this out in any other way, because nobody really gets it, and I dont blame them. Im making myself look more stupid with each day.
Whatever, im not gonna be around forever.