Weird ass day.
So today I had a Anxiety attack I dont know what happened
I was okay, and then all of a sudden I wasnt and I felt like
I couldnt breathe, and started to cry really hard, and then I tried
to talk to Nadine about it and she signed off, my best friend signed off
and never came back, when i was in the MIDDLE of an anxiety attack. and omg megan i needed you so bad i was like ahh wheres megan wheres megan but i didnt want to call when i was in the middle of like sounding like i was crazy. lol and stephen haha i love him and all but hes like that sucks. people are gay. yea. lol at least he didnt sign off. haha
I dont
know sometimes I just get them when I feel like I dont have anybody, lol and
when she left, omg. I almost died so I went to my bed and put on my lullaby angel, and cried really hard till I fell asleep, just like I used to when i was a little girl. Whenever my mom would scream at me Id run to my room slam the door go under my blanket and cry and hide, just like the blanket was a shield from danger.
I remember when I was little and everyone ALWAYS laughs when i say this, but I was in my room with my brother in this ghetto ass apartment in milwaukee that we lived in and i was hott cuz there was no air conditioning so I woke up, and looked in the window and there was like Fire and a evil face, and so I thought it was the devil, and i hid and was so scared, but i just stood there and didnt fall asleep till it was day time...maybe i was dreaming. but that fact is i really remember being awake. Well. i just totally got of subject.enough of dpression.
O O O
time to walk down memory lane.
Friday
picked me up and we went and bought stephen some stuff to cheer him up from surgery and we got him a bear and 2 barbies one black one white lol of course me and megan were are soooo an oreo blizzard. and megan picked a ballon also that said "its a girl" haha! and she picked the happy face balloon, and hahaha we were driving and megans like "no dont put it out the window it will fly out" and i was like NO it wont! im holding on to it gosh *shrugs* and then i was trying to take a picture of the barbies and megan was going like 290823492 miles and hour listening to her music and all of a sudden i hear like a flying away sound and then i went to grab the ballon back and all the came back was a string. HAHA and then i just looked forward and smiled hoping she wouldnt notice and shes like "corinna wheres the balloon?!? HAAHHA OMG It was SOOOOOOO FUNNY. u so had to b there.
2 bad i wrote like 4 more paragraphs for this journal but this is the only part that i saved and im sooo not rewriting it.
I SO DID THAT "FORWARD" button thing! CUZ MEGAN JINXED ME.
FRIGGEN IDIOT GOSH!!!
I was okay, and then all of a sudden I wasnt and I felt like
I couldnt breathe, and started to cry really hard, and then I tried
to talk to Nadine about it and she signed off, my best friend signed off
and never came back, when i was in the MIDDLE of an anxiety attack. and omg megan i needed you so bad i was like ahh wheres megan wheres megan but i didnt want to call when i was in the middle of like sounding like i was crazy. lol and stephen haha i love him and all but hes like that sucks. people are gay. yea. lol at least he didnt sign off. haha
I dont
know sometimes I just get them when I feel like I dont have anybody, lol and
when she left, omg. I almost died so I went to my bed and put on my lullaby angel, and cried really hard till I fell asleep, just like I used to when i was a little girl. Whenever my mom would scream at me Id run to my room slam the door go under my blanket and cry and hide, just like the blanket was a shield from danger.
I remember when I was little and everyone ALWAYS laughs when i say this, but I was in my room with my brother in this ghetto ass apartment in milwaukee that we lived in and i was hott cuz there was no air conditioning so I woke up, and looked in the window and there was like Fire and a evil face, and so I thought it was the devil, and i hid and was so scared, but i just stood there and didnt fall asleep till it was day time...maybe i was dreaming. but that fact is i really remember being awake. Well. i just totally got of subject.enough of dpression.
O O O
time to walk down memory lane.
Friday
picked me up and we went and bought stephen some stuff to cheer him up from surgery and we got him a bear and 2 barbies one black one white lol of course me and megan were are soooo an oreo blizzard. and megan picked a ballon also that said "its a girl" haha! and she picked the happy face balloon, and hahaha we were driving and megans like "no dont put it out the window it will fly out" and i was like NO it wont! im holding on to it gosh *shrugs* and then i was trying to take a picture of the barbies and megan was going like 290823492 miles and hour listening to her music and all of a sudden i hear like a flying away sound and then i went to grab the ballon back and all the came back was a string. HAHA and then i just looked forward and smiled hoping she wouldnt notice and shes like "corinna wheres the balloon?!? HAAHHA OMG It was SOOOOOOO FUNNY. u so had to b there.
2 bad i wrote like 4 more paragraphs for this journal but this is the only part that i saved and im sooo not rewriting it.
I SO DID THAT "FORWARD" button thing! CUZ MEGAN JINXED ME.
FRIGGEN IDIOT GOSH!!!