ewww mixed emotions...
so i don't know what the fuck is going on with nate. like i know he's mad at me, but if he doesn't call, or at least TRY to make this work, (i've tried calling, and he said he would, and not for me to call him, since there isn't a number to reach him at,) i'm gonna give up on him. and i don't want to, b/c i HAVE been true to him thus far. haha. but now, he feels like a stranger to me. i called the other night, and TRIED talking to him, and he was packing, yes, but still he was to call me, and call my grandfather. and when i talked with him for only a short bit, he said he would do just both of those, call my grandfather, and me, later. and did he, of course not!
i mean i'm not worried, but i am. b/c i did want to try to work things out here, but if he isn't going to try, than fuck it. sorry to say that, but ya know, why spend your time on someone that doesn't want you anyways. ya know. and i did/do love him. but there are other people here that i could worry about as far as love and relationships (etc.). i know if you read this nate, you'll think low of me, but after talking to you last night, i think you already don't want to try anymore. i'm sorry. and i'm sorry if you don't want me to or not, but i do still love you.
****in other news***
went out with jes last night. that woulda been fun, 'cept that she's a homebody. hehe. but it was still fun. we were going to go to a club, buit then we didn't know enough about it and all that, so we didn't, and so we went out to applebees for the second time. sat there and chatted with her friend, Jason. he's a (STRAIGHT) hair dresser! hehe. And before we went to a.b., she tried to dye hers and my hair both. and was simi-successful. so he saw our hair, and said he could fix it for not too bad a price! hehe. so tuesday, i'm gonna go back down that damned highway to dunwoody and let jason do it right. haha, he's gonna cut and style it too. the way i understand it, he's pretty damn good at what he does. b/c he just signed a contract with elite modeling agency to do their hair! haha.
still looking/waiting on to hear from a job. haha. going to party city today, and see if i can get on with them, since that's who i was with, until something better comes up. haha.
gotta go, much love to you all, jes.
DUSTIN! I LOVE YOU BABE!
i mean i'm not worried, but i am. b/c i did want to try to work things out here, but if he isn't going to try, than fuck it. sorry to say that, but ya know, why spend your time on someone that doesn't want you anyways. ya know. and i did/do love him. but there are other people here that i could worry about as far as love and relationships (etc.). i know if you read this nate, you'll think low of me, but after talking to you last night, i think you already don't want to try anymore. i'm sorry. and i'm sorry if you don't want me to or not, but i do still love you.
****in other news***
went out with jes last night. that woulda been fun, 'cept that she's a homebody. hehe. but it was still fun. we were going to go to a club, buit then we didn't know enough about it and all that, so we didn't, and so we went out to applebees for the second time. sat there and chatted with her friend, Jason. he's a (STRAIGHT) hair dresser! hehe. And before we went to a.b., she tried to dye hers and my hair both. and was simi-successful. so he saw our hair, and said he could fix it for not too bad a price! hehe. so tuesday, i'm gonna go back down that damned highway to dunwoody and let jason do it right. haha, he's gonna cut and style it too. the way i understand it, he's pretty damn good at what he does. b/c he just signed a contract with elite modeling agency to do their hair! haha.
still looking/waiting on to hear from a job. haha. going to party city today, and see if i can get on with them, since that's who i was with, until something better comes up. haha.
gotta go, much love to you all, jes.
DUSTIN! I LOVE YOU BABE!