Random confused rant...
So, my ex Blake...yeah this is about him...and HER (his paramour). I will not grace HER with a name because I don't want to, unless I call her a whore, which is what she is...So I still love Blake, right? Yes, I do...and it kills me to see HER doing what's she doing to Blake. Blake says he loves HER and she loves him, but I say it's all rebound, I really do. And I know how easily Blake falls in love.
A little bit of history on HER: She got married at a young age to a guy who looked like a neanderthal...Apparently he treated HER like a neanderthal would treat a woman. She stayed married to him for two bloody years though. BUT, she cheated on him...then starts the process of getting a divorce...gets with Blake (she's not fully divorced yet)...cheats on Blake twice even though she says she loves him, even though they're not 'together'.
So here's the problem now...When I left Sara and Tony's house Friday night, called Blake, said he was at Top Gun, and told me to come if I wanted. So I went and had a drink (one drink because I knew I had to drive). Watched HER make out with every damned one of Blake's friends, except Blake. Turns out she would have made out with Blake had I not been there. I canNOT approve of that, in any form or fashion. Things were fine between us though, despite me wanting to kick her ass and tell her to grow up and that if she loved Blake, she wouldn't do that. And apparently she is afraid that I will kick her ass.
So Blake comes over yesterday because we're supposed to be going out...after much drama because he'd made plans with HER that would have conflicted with mine so I got all out of whack and told Blake to fuck it that I would just drop out of the picture...but he apologizes and cancels on her anyway and comes over. And we talk about HER and I let my displeasure be known for the thousandth time. He understands, but he's too stupid to do anything about it. And it kills me to see this happening to him. I told him he'll either get hurt or get an STD...but he says he loves her and that it's different when they're alone, but he doesn't understand that it's what she does in public that's fucked up.
Why can't I just stop caring, god damn it?
A little bit of history on HER: She got married at a young age to a guy who looked like a neanderthal...Apparently he treated HER like a neanderthal would treat a woman. She stayed married to him for two bloody years though. BUT, she cheated on him...then starts the process of getting a divorce...gets with Blake (she's not fully divorced yet)...cheats on Blake twice even though she says she loves him, even though they're not 'together'.
So here's the problem now...When I left Sara and Tony's house Friday night, called Blake, said he was at Top Gun, and told me to come if I wanted. So I went and had a drink (one drink because I knew I had to drive). Watched HER make out with every damned one of Blake's friends, except Blake. Turns out she would have made out with Blake had I not been there. I canNOT approve of that, in any form or fashion. Things were fine between us though, despite me wanting to kick her ass and tell her to grow up and that if she loved Blake, she wouldn't do that. And apparently she is afraid that I will kick her ass.
So Blake comes over yesterday because we're supposed to be going out...after much drama because he'd made plans with HER that would have conflicted with mine so I got all out of whack and told Blake to fuck it that I would just drop out of the picture...but he apologizes and cancels on her anyway and comes over. And we talk about HER and I let my displeasure be known for the thousandth time. He understands, but he's too stupid to do anything about it. And it kills me to see this happening to him. I told him he'll either get hurt or get an STD...but he says he loves her and that it's different when they're alone, but he doesn't understand that it's what she does in public that's fucked up.
Why can't I just stop caring, god damn it?