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Alrighty so how is everybody doin'? I hope well. I am doing good. Sitting here watching three of my little cousins...Isabel, Mahkayla, and Aden...they are so adorable..I love them to pieces..I got stuck with a last minute babysitting job...and i'm not getting paid...darn.Its all good though cause I love watching my little cousin, even if they are 3 yrs old, 2 yrs old..and alittle under 1 yrs old..its ok though cause they are all tired and all asleep, so no crying tonight! Thank goodness... They all are so precious...just sitting there all quiet and looking so innocent....dont let them fool you..haha j/k.
So anyways guess what y'all???...YELLOWCARD is going on tour again and they have a new album coming out!! oh yes much excitement going on over here for me!!..Yes I am not afraid to admit it..I am like in love with Yellowcard...haha..really they are a great band..hence the fact that I love them..
Ok well anyways there have been a few bad things that have happened in the past few days..one word DRAMA...no it doesnt involve me but i'm the one who gets called when drama goes down..I am the one who tries to get everybody calmed down and the one who consults everyone and well I am basically everybodys shoulder to cry on...ok well there was a little bit of drama that involved me..and well lets just say it sucked..I am going to try to make this story short and to the point..Ok well there was this guy I was talking to in like late June..he was really cool but I liked him as a friend..so one night we were talking online and he had asked me if when I got back to VA if he could take me out..I told him I didnt know...so yeah it was awkward for me..I didnt know what exactly to say..I told him that right now I dont want to be more than friends with him..(yes I am the type of girl who has more guy friends than girl friends..dont know why..I just get along better with guys than I do with alot of girls...)So after that we didnt talk as much..so I get back to VA and he sends me an email just sayin hey and to see how I was and all..so I wrote back..i'm not gonna be mean and not write back...ok so anyways everybody knows that I end everything I write with 'love yas sara'..so of course I ended the email with that..(that wasn't something that is uncommon for me to do so I thought hey no big deal..I mean I can barely know you or not know you at all and if I write you an email or something I am still gonna put 'love yas sara'..thats just me)ok so anyways..he emails me back and basically confesses his love to me..he was like I love you too sara..and I know you want to be friends but I want something more..and I am willing to wait for you..I just dont want you to find somebody else and forget about me...ok yeah so that freaked me out...so I had to do what I knew was best and basically tell him how I felt..so I became little miss heartbreaker..I basically told him that when I say 'love yas' I dont really mean it like that but just as a friendship and that 'love yas' is something I always put. I told him that I couldnt think of him as anything other than a friend and that I dont want him to wait for me...I basically HAD to tell him that I dont like him like that but that the reason why is cause I have found somebody else and its not that I cant like him like that..It's the fact that I DONT want to.....At this moment I really dont want to like anybody else..(not like I did anyways..VA guys suck!!..kim you know).Ok so yeah I know I probally came across as really mean and too outspoken about it. but I had to be..I couldnt lie and I didnt want to but the thing I didnt like about it is the fact that I had to do it..I always thought I would have gotten my heartbroken before I broke somebody else's heart..I despise being the mean person and I normally am the nice one who gets along with everyone..so having to do this was making me go way out of my comfort zone....and well I like my comfort zone very much....anywho other than my own drama..Well of course there is alot of drama going on around here...alot of it..and of course sara gets dragged into it..but I try not to interfere..I am more of the 'mom' when it comes to drama..Everybody is forever coming to me for advice and well even sometimes to yell at and get out frustrations...no not as in yelling at me cause they are mad at me but yelling at me cause I let them so that they can get out the anger without going on psychotic rampages...which I have seen happen before..not very pretty..so yes I am the 'motherly' figure who is also considered the crazy party girl...hmmm nice combo goin on'....Well that is about it for tonight cause well I am tired and I want to sleep.. LOVE Y'ALL!!(I really hope no one misinterprets that..dont need to have another love confessing person get their heart broken by me again..haha)
So anyways guess what y'all???...YELLOWCARD is going on tour again and they have a new album coming out!! oh yes much excitement going on over here for me!!..Yes I am not afraid to admit it..I am like in love with Yellowcard...haha..really they are a great band..hence the fact that I love them..
Ok well anyways there have been a few bad things that have happened in the past few days..one word DRAMA...no it doesnt involve me but i'm the one who gets called when drama goes down..I am the one who tries to get everybody calmed down and the one who consults everyone and well I am basically everybodys shoulder to cry on...ok well there was a little bit of drama that involved me..and well lets just say it sucked..I am going to try to make this story short and to the point..Ok well there was this guy I was talking to in like late June..he was really cool but I liked him as a friend..so one night we were talking online and he had asked me if when I got back to VA if he could take me out..I told him I didnt know...so yeah it was awkward for me..I didnt know what exactly to say..I told him that right now I dont want to be more than friends with him..(yes I am the type of girl who has more guy friends than girl friends..dont know why..I just get along better with guys than I do with alot of girls...)So after that we didnt talk as much..so I get back to VA and he sends me an email just sayin hey and to see how I was and all..so I wrote back..i'm not gonna be mean and not write back...ok so anyways everybody knows that I end everything I write with 'love yas sara'..so of course I ended the email with that..(that wasn't something that is uncommon for me to do so I thought hey no big deal..I mean I can barely know you or not know you at all and if I write you an email or something I am still gonna put 'love yas sara'..thats just me)ok so anyways..he emails me back and basically confesses his love to me..he was like I love you too sara..and I know you want to be friends but I want something more..and I am willing to wait for you..I just dont want you to find somebody else and forget about me...ok yeah so that freaked me out...so I had to do what I knew was best and basically tell him how I felt..so I became little miss heartbreaker..I basically told him that when I say 'love yas' I dont really mean it like that but just as a friendship and that 'love yas' is something I always put. I told him that I couldnt think of him as anything other than a friend and that I dont want him to wait for me...I basically HAD to tell him that I dont like him like that but that the reason why is cause I have found somebody else and its not that I cant like him like that..It's the fact that I DONT want to.....At this moment I really dont want to like anybody else..(not like I did anyways..VA guys suck!!..kim you know).Ok so yeah I know I probally came across as really mean and too outspoken about it. but I had to be..I couldnt lie and I didnt want to but the thing I didnt like about it is the fact that I had to do it..I always thought I would have gotten my heartbroken before I broke somebody else's heart..I despise being the mean person and I normally am the nice one who gets along with everyone..so having to do this was making me go way out of my comfort zone....and well I like my comfort zone very much....anywho other than my own drama..Well of course there is alot of drama going on around here...alot of it..and of course sara gets dragged into it..but I try not to interfere..I am more of the 'mom' when it comes to drama..Everybody is forever coming to me for advice and well even sometimes to yell at and get out frustrations...no not as in yelling at me cause they are mad at me but yelling at me cause I let them so that they can get out the anger without going on psychotic rampages...which I have seen happen before..not very pretty..so yes I am the 'motherly' figure who is also considered the crazy party girl...hmmm nice combo goin on'....Well that is about it for tonight cause well I am tired and I want to sleep.. LOVE Y'ALL!!(I really hope no one misinterprets that..dont need to have another love confessing person get their heart broken by me again..haha)