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Well Im sitting here thinking about my summer last year and the difference between that one and this one. I still have the rest of July and August to go but itz been uneventful besides some family gatherings we had. Brian and me gotta do more shit other than go shopping for the apartment. But itz so hard when we both work full time. Weekends just arent the same either. I had tonz of fun near the end of my last summer. Which gets me thinking...
Man, I cant beleive Sally is gone. It still isnt like sticking to my brain or something. I look at my pictures of her everyday and I just keep thinking, "I wonder when Sals gonna come home to party" Idk. Itz been 3 months and some odd days since she passed. ::sigh:: Itz so unbeleivable. Shes awesome. I try not to think of it as being such a bad thing, like think of all the good memories. They say thats suppose to help but it makes it worse to me. Makes me miss her tonz more. God, I even miss our drunken makeouts n shit and her and I dancing, grammar skool and highskool, all the notes and advice. Fuck. Nothing will ever be the same and that sucks.
All this makes me miss Sarah too. I really wanna talk to her and see why she wont talk to me. I caught myself getting nervous to call her about some pictures my mom found from her and Sandras trip to see their dad in Florida. Which is totaly lame becuz, come on Ive known the gurl my whole life, we've fought many of times and always found eachother again. Idk I think Im more worried about this one becuz I dont know why shes not talking to me. Sandra...right now I can care less about. No offence to her but we needed to go separete ways for a while. And the reason behind her not talking to me (so Ive heard) is dumb anyways. But Sarah, GRR, I have a great weird bond with that chick and it breaks my hart to know shes this mad at me for something. ::deep breathe:: But like Ive said...I cant do anything about this if they wont talk to me.
And another thing. I need to go chill with Rachel or Trish or Hollie or Ami. I need a gurl in my life. Im going krazy not being able to talk to someone about "guy problems" which there arent like major ones but gurls like to bitch to eachother about our guys, itz in our nature. haa And just to get away from the house and be with my friends. No guys. Im sick of guys. They're all dumb. lol
Matt and Jake (and some dude I dont know, Korpes, youve seen it around) got caught doing graffiti. Dumb asses. Felony charge!! duh. Thats stays on your record...some ppl dont employ ppl with a record, so good luck dumb asses.
Eh. Idk. Not an update but a venting thing.
P.S. Im in another country for the weekend...OH CANADA!!
Beach time, which means Ill be tan and not so damn white, yah!!