Unbeautiful

[urdestiny]

Overwhelmed by my stupidity
i often fail to think
Sometimes, most of the time, i just wish i could control myself
i feel so helpless, like nothing is up to me
i hate making decisions, but i hate not feeling needed
I screw up everything i do
no wonder they've come to expect it
i cant believe my actions
because they so miss-match my heart
im hurting deep inside where no eyes can see
nobody wants to know, nobody likes the truth
the truth only causes pain
i like to pretend im somebody
but not only am i nobody
im nothing at all
im not beautiful on the inside
the walls of my heart are coated
with hate, bitterness, jealousy, and pain
if im not beautiful on the inside
how could i ever be beautiful on the outside>?...
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I dont want anything from u anymore cause u fail to see and understand...