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annemarie:
you havent lost me. and i did call you but you were either with laurence or getting high. and i always made time for you. always. then i just fucking gave up. i couldnt take it. i mean i was happy for you and laurence, real happy, but you paid wayyyyyyyyyyyy more attention to him then me. forever. and i felt so fucking invisible. like okay am i still here bc sure doesnt feel like it.
and you know me i wont let you know i have a problem ..till it gets real big.
and yea i have other friends, like manica, mallori, carolyn, meagan.. and others and then my paul.
but i've been friends with them for a loong time. since b4 summer. and i .. i just tried so hard to hang out with you and do stuff.
but we NEVER did. and it really hurt my feelings when you were with your two best friends. especially getting high. woop d fucking do. i mean yea its a great ride. but shit, dont pick your friends over it. i was once stupid enough to do that. hint hint last yr around this time and im fine now. i'd rather not do it. i especially wouldnt want to lose paul. i love him. i love you too tho. but you need to show it, bc i know you love me.
dont be emo. thats really weird. well stupid. dont be depressed. thats a stupid word.
just freaking dont drop me like a block. be my friend.
just write me back.ilu.
you havent lost me. and i did call you but you were either with laurence or getting high. and i always made time for you. always. then i just fucking gave up. i couldnt take it. i mean i was happy for you and laurence, real happy, but you paid wayyyyyyyyyyyy more attention to him then me. forever. and i felt so fucking invisible. like okay am i still here bc sure doesnt feel like it.
and you know me i wont let you know i have a problem ..till it gets real big.
and yea i have other friends, like manica, mallori, carolyn, meagan.. and others and then my paul.
but i've been friends with them for a loong time. since b4 summer. and i .. i just tried so hard to hang out with you and do stuff.
but we NEVER did. and it really hurt my feelings when you were with your two best friends. especially getting high. woop d fucking do. i mean yea its a great ride. but shit, dont pick your friends over it. i was once stupid enough to do that. hint hint last yr around this time and im fine now. i'd rather not do it. i especially wouldnt want to lose paul. i love him. i love you too tho. but you need to show it, bc i know you love me.
dont be emo. thats really weird. well stupid. dont be depressed. thats a stupid word.
just freaking dont drop me like a block. be my friend.
just write me back.ilu.