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im writing...a friend was a little confused about why someone would want to have a journal online...i don't get it either...but im here writing.... I recently have graduated from high school...i had a birthday...18.. And i didn't write in my jounral at home or in here...i guess maybe there isn't much to say...or maybe i havent had the time to think about it....Well that wouldn't be true because i have...I guess gradutation i couldn't believe it came and that i was able to acomplish what i did. Im really proud of how much i did, school work, social life and clubs and plays and stuff...i never could have imagined the life i created by the end of senior year. It was truly wonderful. A great group of friends, teachers that i considered friends, a positive name for myself and a cofidence in my own abilities and a reliance on my friends...but i mean, it truly was a stuggle. Stress was a huge problem, and i have learned so much from it. I think one of my goals for next year is to not be stressed out because of schoolwork or shows. I want things to be relaxing and even though im sure i will have a lot of work i will look at what lies before me and take a piece at a time...i feel that i will be able to savor life this way...But anyway, im just glad to be out of school. Away from pretense. Away from feeling afraid when the assholes passed by me...Away from being held down...Honestly i wouldn't give up my high school life for anything. I saw a problem and i tackled it and learned so much baout myself and what iwanted out of life....But im glad i will have the chance to grow in new directions in college. New people, new experiences, a whole new trade in a sense. I will start on square one when it comes to theatre. I will have to make myself over again in the 'trade' i ahve chosen...i know that sounds wierd, but i guess it just makes sense in my head...Anywho...I also wanted to talk about my birthday-i had an amazing day, that i wont forget...but i feel that 18 is a milestone on paper but mentally i don't feel like an adult..i kinda feel like i have been thinking like one...but i could just be incrediably nieve....But i mean its cool to be legal, but i guess i just hink its a number, and that;s OK....i used to think celebrations HAD to be done a certain way...and i now i realize that they don't have to be done at all....My birthday meant a lot. It was a good time to spend with friends, to celbrate where ive been and where i want to go...i guess the idea of milestones scares me, as i kinda am numb in this limbo between high school packed lunches and college mean plans...But like jane has instructed me, i should be goal oriented..and i ahve been....and i used to have SO M