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[urbitofsunshine]

 blahh is how i feel today.
on a good note im an
auntie. :D cant wait for
the little booger. XD
anyways.
blahh i hate school.
its soo boring
the only class i seem to
really like is econ, wind,
and hpc.
i hate ap chem. i want to
drop it soo bad. its harder
than what i actually thought 
it was gonna be. i probably
failed the test i took today.
i miss him like a lot.
and the fact that he lives 18
miles is making it worse.
i dont know whats worse
dating him and missing him
or not dating him and missing him.
blahh.

rant mode
i hate that i dont see you.
i hate that you dont seem to care.
i hate that you dont think highly of
yourself.
i hate that you make yourself seem
oh so perfect.
i hate that you judge others when
really its you thats a fake.
i hate that you always ask me if its
okay to leave, when by now i really
dont care.
i wish you came around more.
i dont get how you can feel so
strong about her. it doesnt make sense.
i envy the fact that everything works out
for you, and that you never really have to
stress about it all.
i hate that i never seem to do anything 
right.
i hate that we dont hangout as much 
anymore. its like you'd rather be with
other people than me.
i hate the fact that it seems like we're
drifting even though i dont want us to.
blahh that doesnt even explain half of it.