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[urbanstargurl]

Well, it's September..one month of my freshman year overwith and only umm...TEN more to go! :/ I can hardly contain my excitement. It's amazing how much I have changed since this time last year. I'm a completely different person. I know all of my friends see it too. We don't hang out anymore. Sure I talk to them at lunch and do projects with them but it's not the same. Anyway, somehow I'm still happy half of the time..which is a lot better than last fall. Thanks to certain online friends, I came through my depression in just months, and now we don't even talk. If this had happened a few months ago, I would have been ready to commit suicide, but I am the one that closed off our friendships. I'm really ready to move on- finally. Strange how much your priorities can completely change so quickly. This year is going to be focused on me myself and I. Sounds concieted huh? I think so too. But you have your whole life to worry about everyone else, and I think it's important to put yourself first in your own life sometimes! Lately I've been getting into fitness and I've been studying more and stuff- so that by next year I can be all that I can be. Mint condition. I want to work hard because I know I can do better than this. People put out their hands and pulled me up. Now I just have to go for it, without anyone else's help. I'm not going to have a pillow everytime I fall. I doubt you are still reading this. If you are then you're insane. This writing is me sorting out my thoughts. Not entertainment. My goals up until June in order of importance to me-
- Make drum major for the colt 2004 marching band
- Make all As in school- (making As earns me college $$)
- Make new friends
- Work out twice a week
- Do left and right splits before next dance recital
- Change eating habits for the better