holy fucking shit
wow. the title pretty much speaks for itself. my last update was 2 years ago. TWO FUCKING YEARS!!!!!! So being that I'm me, so much shit has happened it would makes anyine else's heads spin around and their eyeballs explode into space. (pretty nice image huh?)
well i guess I'll try and start where i left off.
Me and Felecia broke up after 16 months of awesomeness. as of now we've been broken up since October 25, 2005. The date is currently February 27, 2007. yeah. so for about a year I was the epitome of a wreck. I stopped eating, sleeping, going to school and did a whole bunch of shit that I'm not gonna mention but has to do with windex and or lottttttttttttttttttts of alcohol. also i never graduated high school. but yeah none of that was her fault. it was mine. i became something i hate but not to worry, that phase is long since dead. i got my GED though
so yeah what else?? welli can't think of anything so I'm gonna jump ahead a year to about the end of september 06. I met a girl named Jill. Jill i had known since i was about 11 or so cuz it turns out we had gone to the Y after school thing together but hadsn't spoken since then. so we caught up and became friends. Then shit got complicated. She starte to like me. But i was still hung up on Felecia. Somehow, me and Jill started dating and for a while, it was great. But, things soon started spiraling downward. As our relationship went on, we started to fight more and more. At one point i was living with her cuz i got kicked out of my house cuz i didn't have a job but yeah i'll get to that after. pretty much we'd fight at least 3 times a day. inevitably, she broke up with me and for about a week, i was heartbroken. i soon got over it cuz i wasn't gonna let it turn into another year of shit like the other year. In total, our relation lasted 4 months (if you can even call it 4 months cuz of all the fucking mini-breakups and such). she dropped me like a stone and then a few weeks later pulled a 180 on everything she said to me. i did kind of the same thing and she got pissed at me but you know what, she said she was done with me first and that there was never ever any chance of us happening again. after we broke up for the final time and i had come to accept it. things we semi-alright. we we;re awkward friends but now, shit hit the biggest fan ever created. in short. we're not friends and as far as i know she can't stand the thought of me. but oh well. thats life. it just sucks cuz its not how i wanted things to end up. we might put on a facade that we're cool with each other, but the underlying hate for each other is so thick you need a machete to cut it
yeah so for a while i was homeless. i didn't have a job and was sometimes living on the streets if not living with Jill. but i got a job and shit went back to normal. I'm a baker at Jonnies Foodmaster.
I'm reconnecting with Felecia, and its great. The world is starting to make sense again and just might finally stop spinning backwards and things might finally be how they should be again. i think that this time around we're both more mature and i think things might work this time. only time will tell
there's so much shit that i haven't even said . this entry is huge and its not even the tip of the iceberg, but i'm sick of typing and thinking right now. i guess i'll try and update more often. not like anyone reads this fucking things anymore
p.s. I'M STILL FUCKING CRAZY!!!!