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like seasons... we changed.
like sunshine we moved.
like leaves we fell.
like snow we froze.
like rain we poured.
and all was left unsaid.
it got too hot.
the wind too strong.
the cold too bitter.
the water too high.
you left me before i could say anything at all.
im sweating.
im scattered.
im frigid.
im drowning.
you were all i had.
12 months out of the year.
the seasons change slowly.
almost unnoticed.
i noticed.
....you're gone.
now it all feels the same.
im numb.
i miss writing.
and that was all just me.
it felt nice to do again.
school is getting easier to get used to.
its not exciting.
its not eventful.
but easy enough.
and different.
im always tired.
i could fall asleep standing.
i fall asleep sitting all the time.
but its okay. im moving forward.
one step forward. two thoughts about stepping back. three more steps forward... even more thoughts about stepping back.
the weekend was pretty amazing.
i did some things i thought i never could.
and met lots of nice people.
now im worried about next weekend.
i dont know what to do.
this is the first time i have to figure out how to entertain myself on my own in forever.
to be honest this is the first weekend in a long time i probably wont be drunk.
it will probably be a very lonely weekend.
not because of the lack of drinking.
because of the lack of friends.
miss you guys.
im sorry for whatever happened between you guys.
now more than even i wish i could be there for you.
even if you dont want me there anymore.
you say you dont care about me anymore.
i will always care.
i didnt wish it upon you because of hate.
i wished it because i know its better if you are apart.
really. im sorry. im here. you know.
like sunshine we moved.
like leaves we fell.
like snow we froze.
like rain we poured.
and all was left unsaid.
it got too hot.
the wind too strong.
the cold too bitter.
the water too high.
you left me before i could say anything at all.
im sweating.
im scattered.
im frigid.
im drowning.
you were all i had.
12 months out of the year.
the seasons change slowly.
almost unnoticed.
i noticed.
....you're gone.
now it all feels the same.
im numb.
i miss writing.
and that was all just me.
it felt nice to do again.
school is getting easier to get used to.
its not exciting.
its not eventful.
but easy enough.
and different.
im always tired.
i could fall asleep standing.
i fall asleep sitting all the time.
but its okay. im moving forward.
one step forward. two thoughts about stepping back. three more steps forward... even more thoughts about stepping back.
the weekend was pretty amazing.
i did some things i thought i never could.
and met lots of nice people.
now im worried about next weekend.
i dont know what to do.
this is the first time i have to figure out how to entertain myself on my own in forever.
to be honest this is the first weekend in a long time i probably wont be drunk.
it will probably be a very lonely weekend.
not because of the lack of drinking.
because of the lack of friends.
miss you guys.
im sorry for whatever happened between you guys.
now more than even i wish i could be there for you.
even if you dont want me there anymore.
you say you dont care about me anymore.
i will always care.
i didnt wish it upon you because of hate.
i wished it because i know its better if you are apart.
really. im sorry. im here. you know.