Dear ____ this has always been about standing up for yourself...

[urastupidgirl28]

is it normal for life to be so full of hope yet so full of crap?

thats how i feel.
its so good to be me.
but also the hardest thing in the world.

im set for school.
going in the fall.
i have a pretty decent job. thats easy.
fun sometimes even. pays good.
and im pretty much the best at it.
i have amazing friends.
yes. there are two different groups of them.
but i wouldnt trade either for the world.
and i have a lot of fun. a lot of the time.

but i also do very stupid things.
drunk dialing/texting.
which led me to making an ass of myself to one of the very few decent guys left.
i have zero money.
and i need a haircut. new nails.
and my cars broke.. again.
i need a new alternator.
and a new power steering hose.
expensive shit for those who dont know auto parts.

you keep saying sorry. how you miss me.
how you want things to be the same...
its all too much for me.
is it wrong to turn away someone that you know needs you if it is ultimately the right decision? for you.
all that im doing is looking out for myself.
i dont need the negativity. its time to part ways and move on.
how do i make you see this.