security
it amazing how much comfort came be found in finally making a life decision. That's the most important thing i did this turkey day weekend. Im joining the military. Well, that is provided that i get the scholarship where they pay for everything, but honestly, after all the work ive done, i dont understand why i wouldnt get it, except that im so not in shape, but i started working on that too today. I figure they pay for my schooling and they give me a monthly tax free allowance, then a guaranteed job for four years. From that point, i could stick with it and retire when im 38 instead of 70 something, which is what the retirement age will be by time i get there (stupid govt), or I could use the GI bill and major in something different. Either way, its better than getting into college with student loans and having nowhere to go with my life. After i figured this out, i suddenly could go to school smiling again. My waining love for him stopped waining and grew to a point i wasnt sure it could go. I dont even know why i was pushing him away, although i could make a zillion guesses. Im no longer stressed out anymore, thats the good thing. now all i had to do is talk to the recruiter and fill out the college applications, and im good, lol. I miss her a lot though, and i really wish things were less confusing...she just keeps giving mixed signals all over the place! eh, oh well. btw, all who deem themselves important need to see RENT. U have been demanded, now go!
love u all <3
shae
love u all <3
shae