Comments | ura_smuggle: I wish I were the rain

ura_smuggle

I wish I were the rain

Jul 29, 2005 15:10

It is absolutely gorgeous outside.
I must say monsoon season and family
are the only things that keep me in AZ.

Last night I had two dreams,
you were in both of them.
Paralyzed in one,
flying a kite in the other,
I hope life to you resembles
more of the second than the first.

I love comments, thanks everyone from last time...

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Sorry, this should go on your last post. anonymous July 29 2005, 17:06:09 UTC

I miss the old me, sometimes. I had a lot of fun then, but wasn't the best person. I treasure those memories, well the good ones at least. I carry many of the same passions and interests. My personality traits are somewhat similar, however I am a different person. I still am a free spirited, spontaneous dork, but I have a little direction and responsibility instilled in me. I wake up everday with a smile on my face, looking out at the adventures ahead. I have tried, and I have failed. I have learned, and I have tried again. I am doing well. Exceptionally well. I miss you. I miss everything about the idea of home. This is my "status check."

Re: Sorry, this should go on your last post. ura_smuggle July 30 2005, 02:26:06 UTC

I am glad you are doing well. There are things I sometimes miss about you too, like the attention, the mystery and the adventure. Sadly, those are the same things I learned to hate you for. I hated feeling like you were the only one who could hold my attention, like no one else mattered, especially those I loved most. I hated the mystery of never knowing what you or we were. Even now, I feel as if I knew who you were, I mean who you really are deep down when no one else is around, I could be happy and move on and accept it. I hated the adventures I would agree to go on with you, and later regret. I hated Mexico, and New Years, and Chicago but I learned a lot. And there are the occassional memories that I can still smile at. Believe me, I know you weren't the best person, neither was I. I can't figure out what I am trying to say here. I want to hear about you and know how you are doing, but I cannot involve myself with you. I want to believe the things you say, but the past was so cruel, I sometimes fear to move forward. If I were able ( ... )

Re: Sorry, this should go on your last post. ura_smuggle July 30 2005, 02:28:45 UTC

Oh yeah, I didn't mean to say hate...more like lost respect or resented.

Re: Sorry, this should go on your last post. anonymous July 31 2005, 23:29:18 UTC

Thank you. It's fine to express yourself and your feelings that you have. Nothing is too harsh. Words cannot express how sorry I am about the past, they really can't. I will check in with you. I will let you know that I am safe. I want to tell you all about me, who I am, but I don't know if you want me to. You are a great person. You are smart, funny, but most of all you are a brilliant friend. That is what I miss most. Thank you for that. Thank you for caring. Thank you for being a wonderful listener.

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anonymous August 29 2005, 00:25:49 UTC

I downloaded Enrique today. It made me think of you. I never thanked you for that, like I should have. So, thank you, really.

ura_smuggle August 30 2005, 12:17:18 UTC

Funny, I pulled out those cds last week.