Private to Kakashia_for_tioriSeptember 24 2009, 06:23:11 UTC
[Sasuke might say something like It wasn't your intention to betray Konoha, and it's true. But it doesn't matter because intention is meaningless for shinobi. All that matters is action. Brainwashed, or of his own free will. Whether it was due to malice or merely weakness. Kakashi is a shinobi, so for him the result is the only thing.
He might say that no one blames him, but it would be a lie because Sasuke does. He's angry. Angry that Kakashi got himself caught. Angry that Konoha let him be caught. Angry at himself for giving a shit, for getting involved when Konoha had only destroyed his life - but he'd gotten caught up, stupidly, and it was Kakashi's fault, for making him forget, for making him lose focus, just like he had when he was on Team 7 and so he had gotten tangled up in distractions again - and what good had that done him, when he died and Itachi died and now everything was fucked up -
Sasuke might say a lot of things. In the end, he decides that offering comfort is pointless. He is curious, though.]
You left Konoha.
[It's almost a question. Surprising, isn't it. That Kakashi would leave. And after all that nonsense he'd fed Sasuke about staying with the people who were precious to him.]
Private to Sasukeura_no_uraSeptember 24 2009, 07:21:19 UTC
[ It takes him a few days to respond. A few days between when he lost time and opened his eyes to find himself standing in a pile of snake guts and now. When things are a little less unraveled. When he's had some time to rebuild what had crumbled. Or to start, at least.
He's not surprised that Sasuke would respond like this. Doesn't want him to get the wrong idea either. ]
To train.
[ He explains. He hasn't left Konoha. To leave Konoha would be to turn his back on Konoha, and he isn't leaving, but looking towards it. He's not ready to return yet, but Konoha is home, and home is where he belongs.
Re: Private to Sasukea_for_tioriSeptember 24 2009, 07:31:43 UTC
[He shrugs. It's a stupid excuse, so Sasuke thinks it's probably a lie. Or maybe not. Maybe he's figured out that it's impossible to get stronger in a place like that. Where there are things that matter other than strength, things that sap away your will and paralyze you with complacency.
Either way, it's not like he particularly cares. Sure, he's a little annoyed that Kakashi basically fed him a bunch of nonsense that even he didn't believe in, apparently. But he can hardly blame Kakashi for going.
He nods, to show he understands.]
You had to leave.
[And Sasuke had to leave too. Good to know that we're both on the same page now, Kakashi.]
Re: Private to Sasukeura_no_uraSeptember 24 2009, 07:39:23 UTC
[ Ah, but the difference is this, Sasuke.
Kakashi knows what he did, and what he's capable of. Knows how he snapped. How he lost time and to lose time like that, to lose control when he can kill too easily, is too dangerous. And he's failed them before, but he won't fail them again, especially when he needs to protect them from himself, and until he can trust himself --
Re: Private to Sasukea_for_tioriSeptember 24 2009, 11:15:29 UTC
[He raises an eyebrow. Is Kakashi being defensive?]
You're making excuses as if I care. I don't. You don't owe them anything either.
[Not that it isn't annoying that you've changed your tune suddenly. But then, wasn't Sasuke the same? During the curse, he had thought things that were lies. Things like, I would never kill Itachi. It's easy to say so in such a situation. Easy to say how you would react to something that hasn't actually happened. To say never.
Still. It's irritating, that Kakashi would judge him (and even if Kakashi doesn't say so, he does, right? Sasuke is a disappointment to him. He can tell.) and then justify leaving himself. If Sasuke cared what other people thought of him (which he doesn't) he'd probably be pissed as hell.]
Re: Private to Sasukeura_no_uraSeptember 24 2009, 11:22:18 UTC
Mm, you're talking as though I've left for good. I'm going back once... I can.
[ He explains quite clearly, because Kakashi has only left Konoha physically, but his heart is still there. Still belongs to Konoha, and always will. ]
Hopefully that will be very soon.
[ You only ever truly leave when you don't plan to return. Kakashi doesn't think he deserves to be there right now. Isn't even stable enough to be there right now. But time will pass.
Re: Private to Sasukea_for_tioriSeptember 26 2009, 04:48:30 UTC
[Sasuke supposes he shouldn't be surprised that Kakashi is planning on going back. Konoha is his home, after all. The place where he belongs. And he'll keep going back to that place even if they send him out to kill as a child before he even knows what death is, even if they make him into a tool and send him out to die so that they can all live in peace. He'll return even then.
Because it doesn't bother him, apparently. Nothing Konoha does bothers him. It doesn't seem to particularly bother anyone. Everyone just accepts it all as par for the course and keeps living as though nothing is wrong. As though there's nothing to be angry about. That's the difference between them, reall - Kakashi isn't angry. Or if he is, he can let it go. Ignore it, or forget it, or whatever the hell he does.
And Sasuke can't.
Or rather, he won't.
He scoffs at Kakashi, irritated. It's infuriating, how he seems to just brush everything off. If Sasuke hadn't been inside his head due to this fucking Hitomi, he'd swear that Kakashi just didn't give a shit about anything.]
He might say that no one blames him, but it would be a lie because Sasuke does. He's angry. Angry that Kakashi got himself caught. Angry that Konoha let him be caught. Angry at himself for giving a shit, for getting involved when Konoha had only destroyed his life - but he'd gotten caught up, stupidly, and it was Kakashi's fault, for making him forget, for making him lose focus, just like he had when he was on Team 7 and so he had gotten tangled up in distractions again - and what good had that done him, when he died and Itachi died and now everything was fucked up -
Sasuke might say a lot of things. In the end, he decides that offering comfort is pointless. He is curious, though.]
You left Konoha.
[It's almost a question. Surprising, isn't it. That Kakashi would leave. And after all that nonsense he'd fed Sasuke about staying with the people who were precious to him.]
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He's not surprised that Sasuke would respond like this. Doesn't want him to get the wrong idea either. ]
To train.
[ He explains. He hasn't left Konoha. To leave Konoha would be to turn his back on Konoha, and he isn't leaving, but looking towards it. He's not ready to return yet, but Konoha is home, and home is where he belongs.
Just not now. ]
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Either way, it's not like he particularly cares. Sure, he's a little annoyed that Kakashi basically fed him a bunch of nonsense that even he didn't believe in, apparently. But he can hardly blame Kakashi for going.
He nods, to show he understands.]
You had to leave.
[And Sasuke had to leave too. Good to know that we're both on the same page now, Kakashi.]
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Kakashi knows what he did, and what he's capable of. Knows how he snapped. How he lost time and to lose time like that, to lose control when he can kill too easily, is too dangerous. And he's failed them before, but he won't fail them again, especially when he needs to protect them from himself, and until he can trust himself --
He isn't ready to go back. ]
It's not safe for me to return.
[ Meaning, he's protecting them like this. ]
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You're making excuses as if I care. I don't. You don't owe them anything either.
[Not that it isn't annoying that you've changed your tune suddenly. But then, wasn't Sasuke the same? During the curse, he had thought things that were lies. Things like, I would never kill Itachi. It's easy to say so in such a situation. Easy to say how you would react to something that hasn't actually happened. To say never.
Still. It's irritating, that Kakashi would judge him (and even if Kakashi doesn't say so, he does, right? Sasuke is a disappointment to him. He can tell.) and then justify leaving himself. If Sasuke cared what other people thought of him (which he doesn't) he'd probably be pissed as hell.]
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[ He explains quite clearly, because Kakashi has only left Konoha physically, but his heart is still there. Still belongs to Konoha, and always will. ]
Hopefully that will be very soon.
[ You only ever truly leave when you don't plan to return. Kakashi doesn't think he deserves to be there right now. Isn't even stable enough to be there right now. But time will pass.
One day he'll be ready.
He'll go home. ]
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Because it doesn't bother him, apparently. Nothing Konoha does bothers him. It doesn't seem to particularly bother anyone. Everyone just accepts it all as par for the course and keeps living as though nothing is wrong. As though there's nothing to be angry about. That's the difference between them, reall - Kakashi isn't angry. Or if he is, he can let it go. Ignore it, or forget it, or whatever the hell he does.
And Sasuke can't.
Or rather, he won't.
He scoffs at Kakashi, irritated. It's infuriating, how he seems to just brush everything off. If Sasuke hadn't been inside his head due to this fucking Hitomi, he'd swear that Kakashi just didn't give a shit about anything.]
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