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hey well its been a rough week. i had two tests today a math and world history and i think i did okay on both of them, and for some reason espcecially the essay. i never feel to great about the essays but i did on this one.
i hate the wednesday-thursday stretch. like it makes my week a whole lot shorter, and its nice to skip classes on days and stuff, but during the week it makes everything so messed up and crazy. i never know what day it is anymore. you konw how some days it just feels like its a certain day? well block days mess that all up for me! hehe i'm cool you know it
i've been thinking a lot lately. i also realized how much things have changed from a year ago. a year ago i was a totally different person, and i was someone that now i probably wouldn't be friends with. everyone's situation is so different, but at the same time its weird to see people making the same types of situations for themselves, with just the details switched around. although sometimes i can never say what i believe, in this regard i dont think people change...
coming up soon we get to pick classes. once again this brings on the whole issue that i have a problem with about moving on, and everything beginning to matter. i think from last year i've changed a lot too in how i view this. i still dont want to grow up and all that stuff freaks me out a bit, cuz i like being in high school and being young. but this year its a little different because i DO want to grow up. i want to get my life started and try to make something of myself. i want to make goals and try to accomplish them. i want to start a life that i can call my own. its then that i can incorporate my kiddish side into what i do. i'll have my life, and i'll live it too (stole that from the whole i'll have my cake and eat it too thing ;=P). i dont want to grow old. my grandparents on my moms side are in town, and i actually love it when they come. they still have fun with their lives and do all the stuff they did when they were young; they're still in love; they're still apt to whats going on around them. they dont live in the past. thats what i want to be like when i get old.
but back to picking my classes haha...i dont think its a good idea for me to skip right to ap calculus, cuz i didnt do so hot this year in math, even tho i understand it. im not sure what to do for physics! if anyone had a sibling do standard/honors and konw what they thought could u please tell me! cuz i've taken nonhonors science all thru and its sucked hardcore its been so easy. we effing draw pictures and make crossword puzzles and shit. ugh it makes me sick. im gonna do ap us history, and i think honors writing in society, spanish 4 and maybe level 2 art. if you think u wanna do any of those, or have advice not to do any of them, comment :).
well i'll be out to dinner soon. ah i love italian food. someone could kill me when im eating it and i'd just die happy! mmmmm its my heaven! MMM! im excited now! lol
i have no homework and i love this feeling...but i do have to catch up in math, i just barely started understanding section 3 last night, and we're in section 7. umm just a tip: DON"T miss the first day that trig is explained to you. otherwise you're screwed trying to teach yourself. -_-
still haven't gotten my license cuz i dont have a car to do the drivers test in! AH!!!! i want my license!!!!! :(
i'm gettin' used to the braces! they finally dont hurt anymore, but whatever. i have a year to enjoy the company of my little friends that i share a mouth with. haha
i like writing. sorry thought i'd throw that in there.
i think im over being upset with life and the world now. like its still there and lingering, but i'm ignoring the part about it bothering me. i'm usually such a happy person! i like to make anything i can optomistic and happy, b/c why live life if you're upset all the time? i make it happy :)
bye loves *me
ps. why does the idea of roads fascinate me so much? nothing to do with driving, but somehow i relate any issue in my life to being a road. ignore me.
i hate the wednesday-thursday stretch. like it makes my week a whole lot shorter, and its nice to skip classes on days and stuff, but during the week it makes everything so messed up and crazy. i never know what day it is anymore. you konw how some days it just feels like its a certain day? well block days mess that all up for me! hehe i'm cool you know it
i've been thinking a lot lately. i also realized how much things have changed from a year ago. a year ago i was a totally different person, and i was someone that now i probably wouldn't be friends with. everyone's situation is so different, but at the same time its weird to see people making the same types of situations for themselves, with just the details switched around. although sometimes i can never say what i believe, in this regard i dont think people change...
coming up soon we get to pick classes. once again this brings on the whole issue that i have a problem with about moving on, and everything beginning to matter. i think from last year i've changed a lot too in how i view this. i still dont want to grow up and all that stuff freaks me out a bit, cuz i like being in high school and being young. but this year its a little different because i DO want to grow up. i want to get my life started and try to make something of myself. i want to make goals and try to accomplish them. i want to start a life that i can call my own. its then that i can incorporate my kiddish side into what i do. i'll have my life, and i'll live it too (stole that from the whole i'll have my cake and eat it too thing ;=P). i dont want to grow old. my grandparents on my moms side are in town, and i actually love it when they come. they still have fun with their lives and do all the stuff they did when they were young; they're still in love; they're still apt to whats going on around them. they dont live in the past. thats what i want to be like when i get old.
but back to picking my classes haha...i dont think its a good idea for me to skip right to ap calculus, cuz i didnt do so hot this year in math, even tho i understand it. im not sure what to do for physics! if anyone had a sibling do standard/honors and konw what they thought could u please tell me! cuz i've taken nonhonors science all thru and its sucked hardcore its been so easy. we effing draw pictures and make crossword puzzles and shit. ugh it makes me sick. im gonna do ap us history, and i think honors writing in society, spanish 4 and maybe level 2 art. if you think u wanna do any of those, or have advice not to do any of them, comment :).
well i'll be out to dinner soon. ah i love italian food. someone could kill me when im eating it and i'd just die happy! mmmmm its my heaven! MMM! im excited now! lol
i have no homework and i love this feeling...but i do have to catch up in math, i just barely started understanding section 3 last night, and we're in section 7. umm just a tip: DON"T miss the first day that trig is explained to you. otherwise you're screwed trying to teach yourself. -_-
still haven't gotten my license cuz i dont have a car to do the drivers test in! AH!!!! i want my license!!!!! :(
i'm gettin' used to the braces! they finally dont hurt anymore, but whatever. i have a year to enjoy the company of my little friends that i share a mouth with. haha
i like writing. sorry thought i'd throw that in there.
i think im over being upset with life and the world now. like its still there and lingering, but i'm ignoring the part about it bothering me. i'm usually such a happy person! i like to make anything i can optomistic and happy, b/c why live life if you're upset all the time? i make it happy :)
bye loves *me
ps. why does the idea of roads fascinate me so much? nothing to do with driving, but somehow i relate any issue in my life to being a road. ignore me.