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I don't know the best way to say this and to be honest, I don't think there is an easy way to. A drink-driver drove into our garden last night and straight into our guinea pig sheds. All my boys are dead and one of the girls. I never EVER thought I would be saying anything like this and i wouldn't have to if it wasn't for that DRUNKEN TWAT who decides to come home from the pub completely PISSED OFF HIS HEAD at 1 in the morning speeding down our road at about 100mph. I didn't hear it at first and then i heard my mum running past my window screaming. I opened my window to ask what was going on and i just got the answer "you don't want to know". At first, i thought there was something wrong with Olivia and went running outside without putting any shoes on. I followed to where all the screams were and nothing could have prepared me for what i was about to see. Seriously. There was a BMW covered in paint laying across where the guinea pig sheds were. I just stood there too shocked to even cry. We started looking for the pigs and i can honestly say it was the worst hour or so of my life. We found them all (luckily) but Dylan had already died. I don't know if any of you know about Dylan, but I love him so fucking much and when i found him just lying there dead covered in paint it completely devastated me. And when the fucking drunken idiot came up behind me and said "lucy, i love guinea pigs, i really do" i just didnt know what to say. I wanted to kill him. I was still too shocked to cry and just stood there holding onto Dylan for about 5 minutes. The police and ambulance arrived and sorted out the driver and his two passengers. They were okay which is bloody suprising seeing as their car is a complete wreck. At the time, i didnt realise the guy was drunk or even who he was. Then i saw his number plate and realised who it was straightaway. His name is Matt and he used to be around Ali's house the whole time in year 7&8. I've always hated him and seeing him speed up our road every day when i'm playing tennis just made me realise he was gonna have a crash one day. But i never knew it would be HERE in my garden straight into my guinea pigs. When i realised who he was, I knew he must be drunk as i'd seen him drunk so many times before. Apparently they did a breath test on him and it came up bright red with one little measley puff. It usually takes about 2 or 3 minutes for it to come up red so that's how drunk he was. David from across the road took Olivia and I to the vet with all the pigs apart from Dylan. They were all checked over and when the vet announced all their injuries, thats when it properly sunk in. My pigs were in such a bad way and I just cant imagine how scared they would have been. If a car drove into a normal house, humans would be terrified; But guinea pigs are fucking tiny and this car basically blew their house to pieces. Phoebus had a completely broken spine and a broken leg. Ed was in a really bad way and Mel had broken his leg really badly. It was so sad seeing my 3 boys who i love SO FUCKING MUCH just lying there in so much pain. The vet put the 3 boys down and saying goodbye to then was one of the hardest things I've done. I wanted them to be happy when they die and here they were sitting here with injuries that i couldnt imagine them ever having and in so much pain. Olivia and I always had visions that Ed and Mel would be lik Diz and Wiz and be the last ones left and have lead a happy and long life. They were 1 year old when they died and i just cant justify that. I know people say this about humans and guinea pigs are far from humans, but they had so much of their life ahead of them and they were so young and carefree. Looking at them gave me flashbacks of them when they were happy and i just completely broke down. When we eventually got to bed, i couldnt sleep and just kept having flashbacks of when i first saw their sheds in pieces on the ground and when they were happy- running around in their runs in the summer. I just hope they have had a good life (however short it has been) and i will miss them so fucking much. if i ever see this guy again, i seriously want him dead.
im in tears writing this so im gonna go., but seriously, never drink and drive or get into a car with someone who has been drinking. I've seen what can happen and what it can do to people and it is one of the most horrible and devastating things ive seen in my life. Drink driving has never really affected me before and ive never really known what its like and ive had to find out in the worst way possible what its like......
we took some pictures, and i will post them later