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Why is sex so important to guys?? i dont understand...i used to think just like a guy about sex but nowits become more of a bother than something i really wanan do. I mean is there something worng with me?? i mean dont get me wrong i still like sex but not it only causes more problems when we dont have it. i've tried to explain to him my past and why im not really comfortable with it but it just seems like he doesnt care. he listens for one night then hes back to his same old shit of messing ieth me. i can never have a reasonible excuse for him he just keeps tryin. so eventually ill give in because im sick of the confrontation but i dont want that to sound bad you know. Its not like i havent dicussed this stuff with him cause i have on numerous occasions but its like it goes in one ear and out of hte other.
sometimes when i get home im just to tired and i want to sleep. then i get introuble for the way im sleeping, becuase he says that im trying ot avoid him. i mean im not i just dont like to be groped on while im trying ot sleep and not only that i obviously lay that same way every night because im comfortable that way and i fall asleep better. why doesnt he understand??
and why can he talk to all these girls and im not jealous cause if you know me im not like that. but when i add a boy on myspace that i dont even know, will never see or anything like that, i leave him a comment he gets all pissy and tells me to delete him?? i mean come on if i wanted a parent i would move back with my mom. i left that boy a comment telling him he reminds me of my brother in one of his pics. my brothers cute you know but i wouldnt think about him in a way like that and thats the same way i thought this kid looked. What the fuck!?!?!
why does he get to go out all the time with his friends and leave me at home with the baby and its fine but when i want to go tanning for like a half hour or so and want to leave dylan home with him he gets all mad?? i mean i understand your not his dad but why cant you watch him when your gonna be home?? i mean give me some tiem away for a lil bit too!!
just some things that have been bothering me right now i mena i love him with all my heart and i dont want to lose him but its like i told him already hois actions might force me to go. i dont need added stress in my life i have a 2 year old to do that for me!! lol
its not like any of you wanted to hear me rant on and on about a situation that doesnt involve you but its just my little way of expressing myself and releasing some of the stress thats been building up. cause if your like me and feel like your talking to a brick wall every day it kinda gets to you and makes you feel kinda crazy
on a lighter note my mommy is going to new york today she should be landing at like 230 or 3. its her first time on a plane but she is really excited that she is going she paid for her whole trip by herself and she finally gets a couple days off work!! hope she hasa great time and im glad i got to see her at breakfast before she just leaves me.
alrighty then im gonna get going people so i will ttyl. i gotta work today at 4....poopy!! BYES!!
sometimes when i get home im just to tired and i want to sleep. then i get introuble for the way im sleeping, becuase he says that im trying ot avoid him. i mean im not i just dont like to be groped on while im trying ot sleep and not only that i obviously lay that same way every night because im comfortable that way and i fall asleep better. why doesnt he understand??
and why can he talk to all these girls and im not jealous cause if you know me im not like that. but when i add a boy on myspace that i dont even know, will never see or anything like that, i leave him a comment he gets all pissy and tells me to delete him?? i mean come on if i wanted a parent i would move back with my mom. i left that boy a comment telling him he reminds me of my brother in one of his pics. my brothers cute you know but i wouldnt think about him in a way like that and thats the same way i thought this kid looked. What the fuck!?!?!
why does he get to go out all the time with his friends and leave me at home with the baby and its fine but when i want to go tanning for like a half hour or so and want to leave dylan home with him he gets all mad?? i mean i understand your not his dad but why cant you watch him when your gonna be home?? i mean give me some tiem away for a lil bit too!!
just some things that have been bothering me right now i mena i love him with all my heart and i dont want to lose him but its like i told him already hois actions might force me to go. i dont need added stress in my life i have a 2 year old to do that for me!! lol
its not like any of you wanted to hear me rant on and on about a situation that doesnt involve you but its just my little way of expressing myself and releasing some of the stress thats been building up. cause if your like me and feel like your talking to a brick wall every day it kinda gets to you and makes you feel kinda crazy
on a lighter note my mommy is going to new york today she should be landing at like 230 or 3. its her first time on a plane but she is really excited that she is going she paid for her whole trip by herself and she finally gets a couple days off work!! hope she hasa great time and im glad i got to see her at breakfast before she just leaves me.
alrighty then im gonna get going people so i will ttyl. i gotta work today at 4....poopy!! BYES!!