we might as well be strangers..
the hardest thing to do is probably to walk by someone that you used to know. someone that you used to know on such an emotional and intimate level. i cant say that i know how many feelings and thoughts rush through my head in a matter of just 10 seconds that i see that person. maybe its different for other people, but for me its like.. i donno one of the strongest feelings to ever feel. its like.. you know them, you know them so well but at the same time.. you dont.. you dont know them at all anymore. the past has a way of making new things old, and by doing that it makes the things now seem so different. you want to run up to them and jump in their arms and tell them that you wish things never changed and you wish that you could just be with them again. but then again you just want to keep walking and never glance up to realize what you had at one point, because then you dont think about what you lost and you dont think about how bad it hurts to know you cant have that anymore. so much depends upon a simple glance, a simple look in a direction. you couldnt possibly know what it means to someone, you couldnt possibly know what it feels like. one second, one thought, one part of time, one glance, can make all the difference. i've come to realize that its not what you lost, its what you once had. its what made you different, its what made you the person you are, its what broke your heart, and its what mended it again. this is what it is.. this is how it feels.. and this is how it remains..