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i hate him... i do... some days i just wanna hate him. but i cant. and no im not tellin who him is... cause its pointless anyway
i wish i would have never given into my mom's pushing and crying and begging for me to stay, i hate myself for doing it, but it's my mom. but would it be better to stay and make two people happy and miss an opportunity of a life-time, or actually go and have to worry bout your mom going into depression and your best friend being miserable. i hate this...i just wanna cry all the time cause im choosing to stay, then i wanna cry cause i dont know what to do. i never cry. and then i hate changing my mind cause ppl get annoyed...but why am i so freakin worried bout what these ppl think. then the fact that some of the people that you think would be there for you arent does not help with the whole stress thing... cant it just end... whatever, i dont wanna care anymore.
i wish i would have never given into my mom's pushing and crying and begging for me to stay, i hate myself for doing it, but it's my mom. but would it be better to stay and make two people happy and miss an opportunity of a life-time, or actually go and have to worry bout your mom going into depression and your best friend being miserable. i hate this...i just wanna cry all the time cause im choosing to stay, then i wanna cry cause i dont know what to do. i never cry. and then i hate changing my mind cause ppl get annoyed...but why am i so freakin worried bout what these ppl think. then the fact that some of the people that you think would be there for you arent does not help with the whole stress thing... cant it just end... whatever, i dont wanna care anymore.