Can't Fix Stupid
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:15:22 AM): interesting messege...
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:34:27 AM): so nothing to my revolation is there
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:34:57 AM): oh i did reply
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:35:30 AM): apparently i never go it then
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:36:05 AM): nobody seems to get anything
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:37:07 AM): lord knows it takes alot of mental beatings before something will sink into my thick skull
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:37:43 AM): k
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:41:21 AM): can i ask something that has been bugging me since i got back from up there
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:41:41 AM): your most likely going to anyways
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:42:25 AM): why did you wait for me to leave devils lake? if i didnt matter that much why wait?
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:42:59 AM): i was checking my messages
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:46:31 AM): i'm so throwing a party when you die. Congrats for causing so much damage to the one woman who actually would have died for you, because we both know she wouldnt. I would have loved you unconditionally for the rest of our lives if you would have let me. hell you already knew i was willing with wait as long as it took. but fuck it not like its worth it now......you know how to find me if you come to your senses and actually want to listen to your heart.
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:49:32 AM): funny im throwing a party when i die too, you just dont get it do you. I dont have a heart, no soul, no love, happiness, hope, or care. Its pretty much the reason why im so looking forward to dieing. I flat out dont care and im sick of waiting around to die. life is fucking nausiating.
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:52:45 AM): then get the gun, because i know its close, and just fucking shoot yourself. Save the rest of us the hurt you cause. You lie to yourself because I know you loved me Dj, I saw it in your eyes everytime i looked at you. You are a hypocrite staying with her when you could have been spending your last few months with someone who wanted to take care of you. Fuck still even now if I could take the cancer from you and put it into me I would, but i guess that makes me stupid
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:54:40 AM): hurt i cause... i told you to leave me alone and id leave you alone.
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:55:25 AM): waking up in the morning hurts, breathing hurts, living in general hurts it has since january
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:59:29 AM): delete me from all your stuff, move on cause im never passing this way again.
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 1:01:04 AM): i was stupid to think you'd actually love me....thank you for showing me how wrong my heart was
And as I sit and let this try to soak in "Unbreak My Heart" comes on the random on winamp....ironic isn't it. Fuck 'em....he never deserved me...or something uplifting of those sorts. This was the "perfect" (note sarcasam) to start my day off from work.
Maybe someday I will forget...I can always hope for Altzimers
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:34:27 AM): so nothing to my revolation is there
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:34:57 AM): oh i did reply
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:35:30 AM): apparently i never go it then
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:36:05 AM): nobody seems to get anything
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:37:07 AM): lord knows it takes alot of mental beatings before something will sink into my thick skull
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:37:43 AM): k
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:41:21 AM): can i ask something that has been bugging me since i got back from up there
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:41:41 AM): your most likely going to anyways
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:42:25 AM): why did you wait for me to leave devils lake? if i didnt matter that much why wait?
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:42:59 AM): i was checking my messages
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:46:31 AM): i'm so throwing a party when you die. Congrats for causing so much damage to the one woman who actually would have died for you, because we both know she wouldnt. I would have loved you unconditionally for the rest of our lives if you would have let me. hell you already knew i was willing with wait as long as it took. but fuck it not like its worth it now......you know how to find me if you come to your senses and actually want to listen to your heart.
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:49:32 AM): funny im throwing a party when i die too, you just dont get it do you. I dont have a heart, no soul, no love, happiness, hope, or care. Its pretty much the reason why im so looking forward to dieing. I flat out dont care and im sick of waiting around to die. life is fucking nausiating.
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:52:45 AM): then get the gun, because i know its close, and just fucking shoot yourself. Save the rest of us the hurt you cause. You lie to yourself because I know you loved me Dj, I saw it in your eyes everytime i looked at you. You are a hypocrite staying with her when you could have been spending your last few months with someone who wanted to take care of you. Fuck still even now if I could take the cancer from you and put it into me I would, but i guess that makes me stupid
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:54:40 AM): hurt i cause... i told you to leave me alone and id leave you alone.
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 12:55:25 AM): waking up in the morning hurts, breathing hurts, living in general hurts it has since january
Lynoc (10/10/2007 12:59:29 AM): delete me from all your stuff, move on cause im never passing this way again.
angel_babe_marie (10/10/2007 1:01:04 AM): i was stupid to think you'd actually love me....thank you for showing me how wrong my heart was
And as I sit and let this try to soak in "Unbreak My Heart" comes on the random on winamp....ironic isn't it. Fuck 'em....he never deserved me...or something uplifting of those sorts. This was the "perfect" (note sarcasam) to start my day off from work.
Maybe someday I will forget...I can always hope for Altzimers