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I need some answers.
It's finals week, 25 short days left in my sophomore year, just one more trial period to push me halfway through my high school life. And before I leave, I need to know why this year has been so difficult for me.
I don't want the cop-out answers of religious cliches and manufactured hype. I don't want the flimsy reassurances of people who don't understand my real pain, or aren't really interested in anything but saying a few meaningless words of encouragement. I don't want the temporary attention and love that fades after a couple of days. I don't want to wait for things to get better, because more than likely, they'll get worse. I don't want to believe in other people, because they'll let me down. I don't want to believe in myself, because I know my own flaws far too well. I don't want to place my life, my joy, my heart into the hands of this world because I've done it all before and I know it offers nothing to me.