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-yesterday-
school was boring as usual. after school Christina&I went to Villa Roma with Craig. Cal had poision Ivy so he wasnt there. Christina decorated my agenda&I love it! ha then we walked Craig to the boys&girls club. hung there for a while. after he went in for work we walked back to CHS to meet up with Anthony&Chris. Brett, Raymond&a bunch of other people were there too. then Christina's mom picked us up&we went to Samantha's house, yeah she was a lil late for work. then us four walked around for a bit while she went into work. then we went to Pizza Hut&ate some fooood. Ian was there so I talked to him for a bit. then me&Christina went into the boys bathroom because the hand dryer thing didnt work in ours! lol after pizza hut we went up to my house&had a pillow fight! then Tom called&came. then Tom threw Christina's shoe out the window&we had to go&get it&what an adventure that was! lol then we went out back to the lil playground for a lil bit. Then Tom's mom picked him up&the rest of us wemt up stairs got there stuff&went back down stairs. &lemme tell you that when we stopped on every floor, I mean we stopped on every floor because they pressed every botton! man was that a ride! lol then Christina's dad picked em up. then I finished my h/w&talked to Anthony on the phone then fell asleep.
-today-
+Mr Pagan was absent
+Today is my last day
+Im leaving with Cait to go to Washington D.C. until Monday
-gonna miss everyone! especially Christina&Anthony!
+wrote christina a 10 page note because she wanted me too! lol
well after school I went to Anthony's house.. yeah that was mucho fun.! :x around 5:30ish we met up with Jarvis&we went to Lukes house with Tom, Kyle, Mike, Chris, and some other people. then me, Chris, Anthony, Jarvis, Kyle, Mike&a few other people went to CHS&they skated there. it was some funny stuff. then they took me home at 8:30. I packe for tomorrow, talked on the phone with my brothers x-girlfriend. that was an interseting convo lemme tell you. then I talked to eric on the phone for a bit. : ] havent talked to him for a while because I've been busy doing other stuff. right now Im talking to Christina, Ashley&Cait. Christina's trying to help me with this problem that I have. I've come to the point where Im not happy anymore, I'm just depressed all over again! &I dont wanna be there again because last time I ended up crying myself to sleep every night, I found myself thinking about that one person every moment of the day&all this other shit&Im just so tired of being confused&by being treated as this person who will do anything. hopefully he'll see this&understand what he's doing to me..
life for others: lol dunt fall for sweet talk - its nice & all but jus dunt cuz then at the end hell end up jus breaki yur heart - go for a guy thats so nice & cares alot about u & not jus how u look or wat u do w/ em
you dont even no how true that really is. thanx Christina you helped me a lil bit but Im still blahh about the entire thing. Its so hard to explain. Its just Im so happy when Im with him&I feel like myself again. but then I hear things&everything of the last guy comes right back to me&I dont want it too.. &again Im crying over a guy because of confusion&all this other stuff&Im so tired of being lied to&played out that its crazy. I thought that this guy would be differnt then all the others but man was I wrong&I hate myself for even thinking like that. I just want him in more ways then one.. i cant even explain what Im feeling for him but its good&I want it. &hopefully by some odd chance he sees this entry&thinks what I must be feeling right now. lonley&depressed all over again<3