it's four o'clock in the fucking morning..
Blah. Last night Josh came over and we went to Jared's and played pool with Justin and then went back to Jared's house. It was rather entertaining until 10 45 when I had to come home. Then it got gay lol.
Today was dull. I fought with my mom while cleaning (hell yeah, multi tasking) until like 4 or something then me and my sister went over to my Grandma's house in Deltona so we could be there when my family came. They drove down here from North Carolina and got stuck in traffic so they didn't get here until about 5 30,6 somewhere around there. So then we ate dinner and came back home with Zack (muh cousin) and we just hung out here. Tomorrow they're going golfing so anyone who wants to hang out until like 5 I'm all for it. So yeah today was pretty gay.
Arghhh I'm tired. My dad told me to read this book called the Da Vinci Code and I've been staring at the same page for like the past hour. I can't get into it. I haven't read in so long. I need to. I have got to get good grades this semester. I have a A,C,D,F for last semester. If it wasn't for fucking math I swear. I just wanna punch Mrs. Fogleman. I wish she'd just pass me so she won't have to deal with me anymore and I won't have to deal with her anymore and no one will have to deal with anyone anymore. No more. I'm tired and cranky. Today was really humid and usually I love the rain but I was crabby all day. What's up with me? OH WAIT I remember why I was crabby!! Maybe cos my stupid mother slapped me like 7 times. So then she comes in my room and apologizes and expects me to go to Jolly Happy Land just because she apologized for something that shouldn't have happened in the first place. I don't think you should hit your kids to discipline them. If you love them so much why inflict pain on them? That's my theorem anyways.
Today I was thinking about that one day when me and Ashley were going to the fair and the night before my dad threatened to leave. We were sitting on the back porch today just talking about stuff and I don't think I've ever really realized how much I care about him. He's not around a whole lot anymore but that's because he's trying to give me everything I want and need. He busts his ass for it. I feel so guilty sometimes when I get in fights with him. Or if he asks me to go get a glass of water for him or something and I say no. What's wrong with that picture. I need to find ways to better myself.
But in the meantime I'm going to talk to Lauren.
<3 HiLaRy