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it's been awhile since i wrote anything.
i've just felt like it was pointless, and embarassing to talk about how bad life is.
i still think it is.
i have no friends. i've stopped trying to be social. i've given up.
i'm not writing anymore.
i hate simply moving. i'm so depressed, i'm having to withdraw from all but one of my classes.
i don't understand how people can't know. i can't look in the mirror without seeing that all hope is gone from my eyes.
i've been defeated. everything i thought i am or was, it's been chisled away since last october.
this is just to say i'm not dead. barely alive. but here.
i've just felt like it was pointless, and embarassing to talk about how bad life is.
i still think it is.
i have no friends. i've stopped trying to be social. i've given up.
i'm not writing anymore.
i hate simply moving. i'm so depressed, i'm having to withdraw from all but one of my classes.
i don't understand how people can't know. i can't look in the mirror without seeing that all hope is gone from my eyes.
i've been defeated. everything i thought i am or was, it's been chisled away since last october.
this is just to say i'm not dead. barely alive. but here.