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my most recent exboyfriend wrote me a long facebook message, ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.
or rather, he wrote something about an allen ginsberg poem, and sent it to me wanting my feedback and a discussion, ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.
it's like, wait, what?
i'm trying to wish the boy well and such, but, uhm, he kinda sorta used me. if he'd never asked me to find him drugs after we broke up, i might not feel that way so much -- but i do. and while i don't believe in regrets, i regret the money i spent on/with him. if we did a tally it would be up in the hundreds. we had a running joke that he owed me a pony, and then he broke up with me before that debt was paid.
plus on his list of reasons to end it, he stated that he didn't want to come out to bryn mawr -- he prefered going to bars with his friends and getting drunk. (what is it with me and alcoholics?) and then when he last wrote to me, when i told him how sober i was, he told me about a bloody nose he had from getting drunk -- like it was funny.
ha ha ha ha.
i dunno. i am starved for intellectual conversation. and i haven't really let myself think about the beatniks so much recently, and maybe that's something i'd like to get back to. and maybe i should be friends with my ex. maybe i should respond. maybe i should think more. i dunno.
in other news, my roommate is MIA (definitely didn't spend the night here last night, she missed me getting locked out of my room at 2am and sleeping on the couch) -- and i'm not sure if i've seen her since friday night. and her boyfriend doesn't live in this state so it's not like she's out with a guy.
i'm a little worried. :-/
and i got a SEXY new cell phone.
or rather, he wrote something about an allen ginsberg poem, and sent it to me wanting my feedback and a discussion, ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.
it's like, wait, what?
i'm trying to wish the boy well and such, but, uhm, he kinda sorta used me. if he'd never asked me to find him drugs after we broke up, i might not feel that way so much -- but i do. and while i don't believe in regrets, i regret the money i spent on/with him. if we did a tally it would be up in the hundreds. we had a running joke that he owed me a pony, and then he broke up with me before that debt was paid.
plus on his list of reasons to end it, he stated that he didn't want to come out to bryn mawr -- he prefered going to bars with his friends and getting drunk. (what is it with me and alcoholics?) and then when he last wrote to me, when i told him how sober i was, he told me about a bloody nose he had from getting drunk -- like it was funny.
ha ha ha ha.
i dunno. i am starved for intellectual conversation. and i haven't really let myself think about the beatniks so much recently, and maybe that's something i'd like to get back to. and maybe i should be friends with my ex. maybe i should respond. maybe i should think more. i dunno.
in other news, my roommate is MIA (definitely didn't spend the night here last night, she missed me getting locked out of my room at 2am and sleeping on the couch) -- and i'm not sure if i've seen her since friday night. and her boyfriend doesn't live in this state so it's not like she's out with a guy.
i'm a little worried. :-/
and i got a SEXY new cell phone.