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i have 5-BILLION emotions to work through, and they're getting really annoying.
my psychiatrist says i need work on feeling vulnerable and hurt as opposed to pissed off.
i'm angry too much of the time. it cannot be healthy.
and i feel like i'm always waiting on things that do not come. on people who dissapear.
my kittens help. kittens don't talk, they just purr, and meow, and demand attention.
kittens don't have to make phone calls, or pay bills, they can't lie, the worst they do is knock stuff over and wake me when they decide they want attention at 4am. and even that's easily forgivable.
kittens are unconditional love.
i've been writing more lately. i'm not sure if it helps.
i wish i wasn't so fucking cranky.
i wish i had a love life.
i wish i had my own apartment.
i wish i could organize my belongings.
i wish i had my life back.
emily comes home tomorrow. dallas on saturday. thank god.