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i'm starting to adjust to my life here. better said, i'm starting to adjust to my life.
i'm registering for my classes at MTSU tomorrow. i think i may have found a roommate for next semester. she just can't smoke. *fingers crossed*
i've been meeting new people and making new friends, and reconnecting with old friends who miraculously understand. life's getting better. i'm surrounded by people who love me.
the boy i like can't date me right now. that sucks, but i get it, and he's my friend first and foremost, i'll still get to hang out with him, i think. i'm used to being friends with guys, this is easy and uncomplicated. plus i think that if i didn't understand then i wouldn't be worth dating by anybody. and i'm a catch, hell maybe i'm too good to guys. the last two took advantage, i'd never realized how much until i had four weeks to think about my entire life, they crushed my spirit. it's hard to believe i was mourning the ass a month or so ago. he owes me money dammit....and he couldn't write worth a damn, and never asked to see my writing. some english major. bleck.
maybe things will change in time, maybe i'll meet somebody else and good things will just happen. one day at a time, right?
back to the general update. i got sidetracked.
working at the GapKids is peaceful. zenifying. and less organized than my last gap. i sorta miss the obscene organization and ease of having other people do important things. today i put up racks, and i'd never been allowed to do that before -- the big strong gap men did that instead. and finding the parts to assemble the racks was hard within itself. and the storage space is so cluttered that a person has to get up on a ladder and it's such a hassle. i miss having a big basement filled with organized crates and spare manaquins.
driving into the country is awesome, leaves are blowing everywhere, there are crazy twists and turns that my car loves to round on corners. i can see ALL the stars on a cloudy night. it's beautiful. i smoke cigarettes and get neck aches from just looking up at the sky.
i've had lots of spare time for writing, and while i haven't been doing it as much as i should, as i settle i'm starting to get more into it. actually typed all my cumberland poetry earlier today, i'll post it tomorrow, got more editing to do and i've gotta find some wireless for my computer. using D's right now while i watch a magnificent Desperate Housewives episode.
like i said. i have a good life. in the words of sheryl crow:
"it's not having what you want, it's wanting what you got"
i'm registering for my classes at MTSU tomorrow. i think i may have found a roommate for next semester. she just can't smoke. *fingers crossed*
i've been meeting new people and making new friends, and reconnecting with old friends who miraculously understand. life's getting better. i'm surrounded by people who love me.
the boy i like can't date me right now. that sucks, but i get it, and he's my friend first and foremost, i'll still get to hang out with him, i think. i'm used to being friends with guys, this is easy and uncomplicated. plus i think that if i didn't understand then i wouldn't be worth dating by anybody. and i'm a catch, hell maybe i'm too good to guys. the last two took advantage, i'd never realized how much until i had four weeks to think about my entire life, they crushed my spirit. it's hard to believe i was mourning the ass a month or so ago. he owes me money dammit....and he couldn't write worth a damn, and never asked to see my writing. some english major. bleck.
maybe things will change in time, maybe i'll meet somebody else and good things will just happen. one day at a time, right?
back to the general update. i got sidetracked.
working at the GapKids is peaceful. zenifying. and less organized than my last gap. i sorta miss the obscene organization and ease of having other people do important things. today i put up racks, and i'd never been allowed to do that before -- the big strong gap men did that instead. and finding the parts to assemble the racks was hard within itself. and the storage space is so cluttered that a person has to get up on a ladder and it's such a hassle. i miss having a big basement filled with organized crates and spare manaquins.
driving into the country is awesome, leaves are blowing everywhere, there are crazy twists and turns that my car loves to round on corners. i can see ALL the stars on a cloudy night. it's beautiful. i smoke cigarettes and get neck aches from just looking up at the sky.
i've had lots of spare time for writing, and while i haven't been doing it as much as i should, as i settle i'm starting to get more into it. actually typed all my cumberland poetry earlier today, i'll post it tomorrow, got more editing to do and i've gotta find some wireless for my computer. using D's right now while i watch a magnificent Desperate Housewives episode.
like i said. i have a good life. in the words of sheryl crow:
"it's not having what you want, it's wanting what you got"