Step out on to the red carpet and its like, "wow."

[uptownken]

Recently, I had a wake up call so I had to step outside of myself and peek how I was living. Not going to much into detail but I was hurt on some, "wish you would die/we have never met," type of bs, found a job and was fired four days later, no money, bills, drinking, depression, my probation officer is bitching at me, lots of family bullshit that I had to keep tucked inside, and left/kicked of the house I was living in. Basically I am fucked up and the people who I thought I could count on, showed their true colors at the end. I separated myself of problems and now I'm going to go back face the obstacles I couldn't comeplete before. Why? Cause I can.

"90% of the people that want to see you fail or will kill you have probably ate off your plate."

But its cool, like I said I had to view myself from the outside. Do a bit soul searching. Seemed like everytime I go a step forward, I'm going four steps backwards. Usually, I would bother people with my problems but this time im not. Pointless. If I decide to live my life from other people's answers to my problems, I'm not living my life. Especially if those same people don't want to see me succeeded. Pointless...

Now the question is, what's next? Me... Just me, chill, lay low (stay out of trouble), and make sure i am capable of facing Gods next challenges. I'm ready.

Comments are welcome. Flames, keep them..