Over Troubled Waters
Well it always seems to me that I can not ever have my way. No matter how hard I try, nothing can go right. But why should it? I don't suppose I have ever done anything ultra-spectacular in my life that demands merit. I don't suppose I have ever done anything in life that will make me a rich and wanted man. I don't suppose I have ever done anything in my life that makes me "cool" and "acceptable." But who cares about all that? Every women alive. HAHAHAHA. I am always making the wrong choices it seems. Whether it be the words I say, or the actions I take. They always seem to do the opposite of what I want. They push away the things I am trying to keep close to me. I guess I don't deserve otherwise. I suppose I am just one of those assholes that damns everything that exists because he cant have any of them. Sounds feasible. I think I might be able to live like that. You try and tell someone something, and it gets all turned around on you, and backfires. Nothing new there. I am use to that. I suppose I am well off then eh? If I am use to all the things that are going to happen all through out my life? Life is so wonderful at times. Anyways, I feel like my ship is sinking. And seeing as how I am captain of my ship, I must go down with it. No one else boards this ship anyways, so I don't have to worry about hurting anyone in the process of sinking to the bottom.