...sigh....

[upthekidsget]

Ok so I finally got the housing which means I now have an address and a cell phone number.... It also means that I now know that I did not get my first or second choice housing.... but rather will be holed away in a room by myself no roommate or appartment mates and no kitchen.... due to my recent obsession with eating right and desperately trying to prevent a repeat of freshman year I am flipping out. Lately I have become obsessed with food and with what I eat and when.... My eating options are now completely limited to restaurants .... pizza and what not.... I am freaking out.... I now more than ever just don't want to go.... I can't handle being stripped of all control as those of you who know me will admit. I can't handle not having control of what I eat. Not to mention the fact that I am alone in this appartment that is more like a hotel room than an appartment .... I need people around and if it means being stuck with another naked crazy roommate than so be it.... But I was hoping to end up in a five room appartment rather than the studio .... again I really shouldn't be complaining... I just feel like I have nothing to cling to here and as lame as it is I am freaking out about the food situation.... I don't want to be stuck eating what is akin to SLC pub food for an entire year.... I also realized that my housing is way the fuck out in the suburbs so on top of everythign I will also be way far away from Alex.... I just don't want to go ... I feel like I've made a mistake and that I am going to end up lonely and fat holed up in my room in the suburbs... Rant rant rant......good thing I'm leaving in three days.......

http://www.suv.com.au/site/html/student_living/the_apartments/details-one_bedroom_studios.htm

Amanda Kruger
University of Sydney
Locked bag M161
Camperdown, NSW 2050
AUSTRALIA

Cell (if dialing from the US) 011-61-433527514

(If dialing from AUS ~Alex) 433527514