my home

[upsetmyheart]

this is not my home,
but my heart 
has embedded itself in the sand.
it has left me for the dust;
the nothingness surrounding me...
and i know this is not my home.

i will leave it...
in the sands 
where refuge has been discovered...
refuge from evil,
seeping from the cracks in the mountains...
is this my home?

how can i return 
to everything i once knew
and hope to be sated?
how can i look through eyes now glazed and changed?
death has eaten at me...
taken my heart deep beneath the sands...
and created my home.