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Life on my end has been a rough go. Thing keep seeming to go from bad to worse. I know i shouldnt say that since i have my health, family, friends and live in good conditions. But everything seems to be stressful. I've once again broken out in a stress rash that covers my neck and drives me nuts. i find myself scratching it even when im daydreaming.
When i went on my mini vacation to NY and MA it was a healing time. I was able to figure out everything that was wrong and was on my way in attempting to fix it. But as soon as i got home responsibility, stress and craziness took over and i havent had a chance to think of it since.
J's been doing terrible. Sometimes i dont know how he manages with so much crap to deal with. If i were in his place i would have fallen a long time ago. I'm very greatful that he is able to trudge on because i couldnt imagine things without him. one day i know things will get better and less stressful but its hard to see that sometimes.
We fled Kingston yesterday because it was a drowning feeling for both of us being here. Ann-marie(lisa gf) threw lisa a surprise grad party for her 3 yrs at Fleming College. So we drove up with the dogs, and met some great new people, enjoyed ourselves up until 1am. at that time we were all going to go for a walk to the mountain brow in hamilton. Things happened and Ki got out of the backyard and ran onto the road. A Van or SUV hit her as he/she breaked from 70km/hr. Ki went tumbling then ran yelping towards the backyard. The car drove off after it hit my dog. what kind of heart does that person have. I've never felt so much anger and hatred it seemed. No one got the license plate because everyone was trying to get Ki. I screamed, cried and yelled. Ki, J, buddy and i in one car. The hamilton folk in the other leading the way to the emergency vet. we drove and drove and drove. I was so upset but trying to hold it in. Ki seemed as if she was fine but how could she be after being hit that bad. The vet checked her out and couldnt find anything broken ie.bones, ribs, lungs, bladder, etc... All she had was a scratch on her left front leg. Talk about a fucking miracle. Im back in Kingston now. She's lying a few feet away from me sleeping contently as if nothing ever happened. I love her so much that it hurts. I'm not really one for indepth spirituality but i think ki is a pure spirit of love and was meant to be with me. she's meant to guide me.
When i went on my mini vacation to NY and MA it was a healing time. I was able to figure out everything that was wrong and was on my way in attempting to fix it. But as soon as i got home responsibility, stress and craziness took over and i havent had a chance to think of it since.
J's been doing terrible. Sometimes i dont know how he manages with so much crap to deal with. If i were in his place i would have fallen a long time ago. I'm very greatful that he is able to trudge on because i couldnt imagine things without him. one day i know things will get better and less stressful but its hard to see that sometimes.
We fled Kingston yesterday because it was a drowning feeling for both of us being here. Ann-marie(lisa gf) threw lisa a surprise grad party for her 3 yrs at Fleming College. So we drove up with the dogs, and met some great new people, enjoyed ourselves up until 1am. at that time we were all going to go for a walk to the mountain brow in hamilton. Things happened and Ki got out of the backyard and ran onto the road. A Van or SUV hit her as he/she breaked from 70km/hr. Ki went tumbling then ran yelping towards the backyard. The car drove off after it hit my dog. what kind of heart does that person have. I've never felt so much anger and hatred it seemed. No one got the license plate because everyone was trying to get Ki. I screamed, cried and yelled. Ki, J, buddy and i in one car. The hamilton folk in the other leading the way to the emergency vet. we drove and drove and drove. I was so upset but trying to hold it in. Ki seemed as if she was fine but how could she be after being hit that bad. The vet checked her out and couldnt find anything broken ie.bones, ribs, lungs, bladder, etc... All she had was a scratch on her left front leg. Talk about a fucking miracle. Im back in Kingston now. She's lying a few feet away from me sleeping contently as if nothing ever happened. I love her so much that it hurts. I'm not really one for indepth spirituality but i think ki is a pure spirit of love and was meant to be with me. she's meant to guide me.