Just a few poems...and pictures.

[uponangelwings]

These are both intended for the same person, both of which they probably wont see. But it isn't anyone on livejournal or myspace. so chances are it isn't about you.

(poem 1)
Gut wrenching

Heart pounding

Mind racing a mile a minute

So confused by the mess you created

Can't figure it out

Don't understand anymore

Wish I could see inside

The mind that is so lost...so scared

I'm here to help

Not to intrude

But the harder I try

The farther I'm pushed away

It fucks me up

Not really sure why

Uncertain of how to act

These eggshells cut deeper

Wish things were back to normal

Only, I dont remember what normal was

My cheeks hurt from faking

The smile that is slowly fading away

Can't feel anymore

The care; the compassion

It's one sided

So why do you keep turning the knife?

Sorry if youre hurting

I can only try so hard

But stop making me feel bad

All I have been is there for you

Never asked for much

But there is only so much I can give

My heart is weakening

It can only be let down so many times

Is there something I missed?

Overlook any clues?

If not, than what?

What is it you want me to figure out?

Time slowly slips away

But you keep running faster

So hard to keep up

And Im falling behind

Walls to high to climb alone

Yet still left with a rope too short

Sooner or later

These tears are going to wash me away

And you'll never really know

How much I was willing to give

I don't ask for much

Just honesty.




(poem 2)

I held out my hand

And you pushed it away

I showed compassion

And you ran from it

I leave you alone

And you find me

Again

And again

I think, Its different this time.

And you prove me wrong

I asked how to help

And you showed me the door

I pushed on the bricks

And you built the wall higher

So high

You blocked out the sun

I tried to understand

And yet you shortened the rope

I tried holding on

And you made me feel guilty

I know that you are guarded

And rightfully so

But there is no excuse

For treating someone like this

I am done with the mind games

And I hope you realize

I can only withstand so much pain

Before I just walk away.