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I went running today and it felt so good. Like, cleansing, feel-your-chi-through-you-hippy-aura-renewing gooood. I think a regular schedule of some kind of exercise has been what I've been missing; sometimes it feels so dang good to just sweat out some stress. I mean, after I came back I totally ruined it by drinking a non-diet cherry pepsi, but whatevs.
I wonder if someone's psyche is thinned or inflated by whether or not other people think of them. That makes no sense and sounds crazy when I write it out, but it's a more coherent, disembodied concept in my mind.
This year is going ... slowly? Quickly? Weirdly? I don't really understand it. I have yet to cross off most of the stuff that was on that list from a few posts back (though I'm taking the 2級 in December, yaaaay), nor do I have much of a plan for the future.
What should I do after this year? Some part of me wants to go on to grad school so I can keep on going with the Japanese, maybe really start with some Chinese, and political science? I'm finding with my class that is actually focused on the discipline of political science that the life of a political scientist sounds really kind of.. eccch. Not that I find politics any less interesting, but the field of political science seems like it's totally full of the eccentricities and crap that are barriers in the academic world; as I've grown up I've seen my parents deal with all the egocentric bullshit that universities and professors are absolutely full of, and I'm just not sure that's what I really want. On the other hand, I really feel like I'm finally getting somewhere with Japanese. And maybe I'm full of it, or it's a lie perpetuated by the fact that I'm misremembering the constant slaughter of my self-confidence that happened while I was in Japan, but it'd be nice to actually use this damn language somehow, somewhere. So grad school is probably the best route for that.
But I'm wondering if it's too soon, or that maybe I should take a year off after I graduate and try and find actual experience in these different fields before advancing to the next stage of my education. It couldn't really be a bad thing, except that it might throw off my academic rhythm and make it harder for me to get back into whatever. Also, there's a not-too-bad chance that I would do nothing but throw away a year in some part-time job somewhere because I wouldn't be able to get any kind of decent position. Ugh. I dunno. Self doubt! So: a meme!
Instructions:
Take a picture of yourself right now.
Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair - just take a picture.
Post that picture with NO editing.
Post these instructions with the picture.
If I grew out my moustache a teeny bit more I think I'd look oddly Captain Jack Sparrow-y, but maybe that's just because USA has been playing the Pirates movies NON-STOP for the past week. Who knows.
I wonder if someone's psyche is thinned or inflated by whether or not other people think of them. That makes no sense and sounds crazy when I write it out, but it's a more coherent, disembodied concept in my mind.
This year is going ... slowly? Quickly? Weirdly? I don't really understand it. I have yet to cross off most of the stuff that was on that list from a few posts back (though I'm taking the 2級 in December, yaaaay), nor do I have much of a plan for the future.
What should I do after this year? Some part of me wants to go on to grad school so I can keep on going with the Japanese, maybe really start with some Chinese, and political science? I'm finding with my class that is actually focused on the discipline of political science that the life of a political scientist sounds really kind of.. eccch. Not that I find politics any less interesting, but the field of political science seems like it's totally full of the eccentricities and crap that are barriers in the academic world; as I've grown up I've seen my parents deal with all the egocentric bullshit that universities and professors are absolutely full of, and I'm just not sure that's what I really want. On the other hand, I really feel like I'm finally getting somewhere with Japanese. And maybe I'm full of it, or it's a lie perpetuated by the fact that I'm misremembering the constant slaughter of my self-confidence that happened while I was in Japan, but it'd be nice to actually use this damn language somehow, somewhere. So grad school is probably the best route for that.
But I'm wondering if it's too soon, or that maybe I should take a year off after I graduate and try and find actual experience in these different fields before advancing to the next stage of my education. It couldn't really be a bad thing, except that it might throw off my academic rhythm and make it harder for me to get back into whatever. Also, there's a not-too-bad chance that I would do nothing but throw away a year in some part-time job somewhere because I wouldn't be able to get any kind of decent position. Ugh. I dunno. Self doubt! So: a meme!
Instructions:
Take a picture of yourself right now.
Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair - just take a picture.
Post that picture with NO editing.
Post these instructions with the picture.
If I grew out my moustache a teeny bit more I think I'd look oddly Captain Jack Sparrow-y, but maybe that's just because USA has been playing the Pirates movies NON-STOP for the past week. Who knows.