(no subject)
everytime i feel sad
like today
i felt so discouraged about everything
i always go back to the same teenage girl idea..if only i was skinnier
lol
i obsess over it
and do nothing to change it
and i know ppl will comment and say crap about how i am not fat
i never said i was fat
but i don't WANNA BE fat either!!
and i am heading down that road
i don't exercise 40 hours a week anymore...since i cut-back on dance
and i eat bad shit all the time
and half my pants don't fit
and it is seriously depressing
so everytime i think to myself...wow i will never get into a college for musical theater
i think....hmm...BUT I CAN CONTROL MY WEIGTH!!
lol
and then i sit and obsses about it for 30 minutes
and then i say to myself...fuck it
it'll never happen
lol
and then...i go to the freezer
and it is easy for me to critiize smokers and heavy drinkers (haha...idiots)
i always talk about how dumb they are
but truly...food is my addiction
i always wanna eat
i am always hungry
hell...i am hungry right now and i had a huge meal like an hour ago
hahahahaa
but not hahahaha
EWWWWWWWW
is more like it
and i know u love reading about me talking about my weight...u love it so much
i have nothing interesting to say
well i do
but i don't feel like typing
i wanna go...not eat
bye
like today
i felt so discouraged about everything
i always go back to the same teenage girl idea..if only i was skinnier
lol
i obsess over it
and do nothing to change it
and i know ppl will comment and say crap about how i am not fat
i never said i was fat
but i don't WANNA BE fat either!!
and i am heading down that road
i don't exercise 40 hours a week anymore...since i cut-back on dance
and i eat bad shit all the time
and half my pants don't fit
and it is seriously depressing
so everytime i think to myself...wow i will never get into a college for musical theater
i think....hmm...BUT I CAN CONTROL MY WEIGTH!!
lol
and then i sit and obsses about it for 30 minutes
and then i say to myself...fuck it
it'll never happen
lol
and then...i go to the freezer
and it is easy for me to critiize smokers and heavy drinkers (haha...idiots)
i always talk about how dumb they are
but truly...food is my addiction
i always wanna eat
i am always hungry
hell...i am hungry right now and i had a huge meal like an hour ago
hahahahaa
but not hahahaha
EWWWWWWWW
is more like it
and i know u love reading about me talking about my weight...u love it so much
i have nothing interesting to say
well i do
but i don't feel like typing
i wanna go...not eat
bye