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marilyn monroe has to be the most intriguing person ever
so today i got this feeling
i walked into this room
and took one look at all the people
and it set me back like 2 years
all that i have accomplished (haha) and how much i have changed since then
that time when i cared what they thought
a lot
and today i entered that room and those feelings came flooding back and they didn't leave until just now
and finally i am myself a again
i hate how they make me feel
insignificant
i am a sucky Christmas present
and they are like...big fat shiny diamonds
well...they think they are
but they're the ones who will be having babies next year
and getting their stomachs pumped of alcohol
and hopefully i will be away at college
away from them
and their horrible-ness
yes away at college
sitting on some beautiful park bench reading Shakespeare
thats how i thought college was when i was little
always studying
always pleasant
haha...
but back to those ppl...i have decided that they are Jesus
and therefore, i will be nice to them
and civil
and have respect for their foolishness
Jesus loves me
he loves you too
if theres one thing that i toook from catechism, its that mean people are Jesus testing us
how lame is that
i mean, Jesus is great
but come on
...it works tho
not to be all Gandhi right now...or anything
but just picture their silly face with a beard and a gentle smile
since thats what Jesus looked like, right!!!!???
and take away their mini-skirt and put them in a big flowy robe
actually...don't picture it
draw it
and then give them the picture of them as Jesus
i'm sure they'll keep it forever
i have to say...listening to death cab during a thunder storm has to be the best thing ever
i want to take a class
a class that will somehow explain to me these emotions that come from music
i mean...music obviously changes our mood
the first note of your favorite song will change your entire day
and i want to know why
i mean
i know why
but i don't know why at all
because music has to be THE MOST POWERFUL way to experience different feelings
like i can be in the worst mood EVER and chaka khan's "tell me something good" will make me want to dance down the hallways of some empty mansion
but WHY!!!???
haha
so add the Jesus to the feelings and today i am officially a first grade teacher
i'm in another one of those moods right now
where i want to be in some random place
i must be reincarnated and all these strong feelings about places
and like visions of rooms in houses are from past lives
lol
i'm mixing religions here
but really...i just long to be somewhere else
yea...so right now i would love to sit in some over-done victorian style sitting room
and there would be a music lesson of some sort...paino...voice
in the room next door
and you could hear the music perfectly through the wall
and smell the oldness of the room
and it would be a place to clear your head
and just sit
sit and think...with the pretty music in the background
so now that i am TRULY a first grade teacher....or a grandma or something
i better go do my homework
and listen to some hip-hop
and get out of this "funk" that i am in
even tho i don't want to get out of it at all
we get reality every day
its getting old
so today i got this feeling
i walked into this room
and took one look at all the people
and it set me back like 2 years
all that i have accomplished (haha) and how much i have changed since then
that time when i cared what they thought
a lot
and today i entered that room and those feelings came flooding back and they didn't leave until just now
and finally i am myself a again
i hate how they make me feel
insignificant
i am a sucky Christmas present
and they are like...big fat shiny diamonds
well...they think they are
but they're the ones who will be having babies next year
and getting their stomachs pumped of alcohol
and hopefully i will be away at college
away from them
and their horrible-ness
yes away at college
sitting on some beautiful park bench reading Shakespeare
thats how i thought college was when i was little
always studying
always pleasant
haha...
but back to those ppl...i have decided that they are Jesus
and therefore, i will be nice to them
and civil
and have respect for their foolishness
Jesus loves me
he loves you too
if theres one thing that i toook from catechism, its that mean people are Jesus testing us
how lame is that
i mean, Jesus is great
but come on
...it works tho
not to be all Gandhi right now...or anything
but just picture their silly face with a beard and a gentle smile
since thats what Jesus looked like, right!!!!???
and take away their mini-skirt and put them in a big flowy robe
actually...don't picture it
draw it
and then give them the picture of them as Jesus
i'm sure they'll keep it forever
i have to say...listening to death cab during a thunder storm has to be the best thing ever
i want to take a class
a class that will somehow explain to me these emotions that come from music
i mean...music obviously changes our mood
the first note of your favorite song will change your entire day
and i want to know why
i mean
i know why
but i don't know why at all
because music has to be THE MOST POWERFUL way to experience different feelings
like i can be in the worst mood EVER and chaka khan's "tell me something good" will make me want to dance down the hallways of some empty mansion
but WHY!!!???
haha
so add the Jesus to the feelings and today i am officially a first grade teacher
i'm in another one of those moods right now
where i want to be in some random place
i must be reincarnated and all these strong feelings about places
and like visions of rooms in houses are from past lives
lol
i'm mixing religions here
but really...i just long to be somewhere else
yea...so right now i would love to sit in some over-done victorian style sitting room
and there would be a music lesson of some sort...paino...voice
in the room next door
and you could hear the music perfectly through the wall
and smell the oldness of the room
and it would be a place to clear your head
and just sit
sit and think...with the pretty music in the background
so now that i am TRULY a first grade teacher....or a grandma or something
i better go do my homework
and listen to some hip-hop
and get out of this "funk" that i am in
even tho i don't want to get out of it at all
we get reality every day
its getting old