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u keep someone close
without getting close at all
like...u keep them on a LONG leash...not a short leash
u just don't want them to get away from u completely
but u don't exactly want them around
u don't wanna mess anything up
this way...u have options
u can rationalize anything really
i am trying to rationalize my odd behavior right now
on another note
today i was in this room and i have been going in this room since like age 2 or something
its a dance room and i was looking out the window at this patch of grass right outside
and it had a brick wall behind it
and i thought to myself
and i realized that i had never actually been there before...never stood in that place before
but try to put urself there...like next time u see something outside a window or something just stare at it and pretend what it feels like to stand in that spot
and i did that
so now i better go stand over there and see if it feels like how i imagined it
without getting close at all
like...u keep them on a LONG leash...not a short leash
u just don't want them to get away from u completely
but u don't exactly want them around
u don't wanna mess anything up
this way...u have options
u can rationalize anything really
i am trying to rationalize my odd behavior right now
on another note
today i was in this room and i have been going in this room since like age 2 or something
its a dance room and i was looking out the window at this patch of grass right outside
and it had a brick wall behind it
and i thought to myself
and i realized that i had never actually been there before...never stood in that place before
but try to put urself there...like next time u see something outside a window or something just stare at it and pretend what it feels like to stand in that spot
and i did that
so now i better go stand over there and see if it feels like how i imagined it